Phil is an exchange student and Dan happens to be his host brother. GENRE: Fluff/Angst. there is smut but you shouldn't read if that's all you want. WARNINGS: Drug/Alcohol Usage, Swearing, Depression and mentions of suicide (cutting, suicide attempt), Death of family members, Childhood traumas, Car accidents, Boyxboy, Drug dealing word count: 88k+ (In case you don't know this, exchange students live with a family that's called "host family".)

He always felt like nothing. Just another person among seven billion others. "I am useless. The world would be better without me." He felt as unique as a tree - seen everyday, gone everyday. "I'm just another burden; the difference in society, the thing that makes it unbalanced. Why would you stay with me?" "Because sometimes, difference is beautiful." For a sakura tree is out of the ordinary - the wonder only seen once in a long period of time. But hey, everything pretty still has a black shadow.

"you're a student and i'm your teacher. i'm not allowed to love you."

"...it's one hell of a ride once you enter and there's no going back. No exaggeration on 'hell' sonny." Dan Howell, 1979, aspiring writer. I pass the hours in a dimly lit hotel room, locked away with a number of aberrant individuals who display ominous habits.

"I never wanted this. I never planned this. So how do you think I'll get over this horrible disease that literally is eating me away to nothing?" Daniel Howell, a sixteen year old who lives an ordinary life but he has a secret. A secret that he had never told anyone. He is a target of anorexia nervosa. Trigger Warning: Sad Content, Self Starvation, Etc.

"Phil, let's play a game called ouija. "

Dan and Phil's friendship has ended. They moved out from their flat and went their separate ways. Phil has tried to keep in touch with Dan, but he never answers. All of his emails are unanswered, but that doesn't mean Dan never reads them.

*'BEST PHANFICTION' WINNER (FANFICTION AWARDS 2018)* Daniel has anxiety and crumples paper to calm himself down. Phil has ADHD and diminishes hearts to bring himself up.

How Dan thinks of Phil, in poetry form.

❝it fills you with DETERMINATION.❞