Just read it I suppose the beginning is a bit graphic. But nothing a mature person who shoud be old enough to have wattpad couldn't handle. I love all of u guys. Read it and enjoy. >>>dan and phil <<<

This is a Phan fanfic that I wrote a very long time ago :3 if you're not a fan of boyxboy stories then click the fuck away from my story ok? Ok. Love, Tova :3 <3

This is a story about 2 two youtubers Danisnotonfire and AmazingPhil

Dan Howell secretly loves Phil Lester. Phil Lester secretly loves Dan Howell. Dan Howell is bullied. Phil Lester is best friends with Dan's bully. Dan Howell wants to die. Phil Lester is too afraid to stop him.

Phil can't help it. It's been seven years, and he's just reached one million subscribers. Why does Dan get so much more love than him? What makes Dan special? When he starts to see it, he doesn't want to.

Dan comes home from Christmas shopping to find Phil in the bathroom passed out. He doesn't know how or why this happened, but is terrified for his best friend. Dan tries to help Phil but gets annoyed with himself in the process, writing everything he hates about himself along with his deepest secret: his love for his best friend. Will Phil ever find out? WARNING: Could be triggering, attempted suicide, fluff, angst, possible sexual references ©chloemitzu

Dan's the new kid in school, expelled from his last for threatening a teacher. Dan's family hoping this will be a new start, don't know their son's biggest secret. Will Dan have the confidence to tell his father about the way he feels? Or will he continue to be the rebellious teenager he is? Phil is completely the opposite from Dan, never gets in trouble, quiet and doesn't have any friends. Trying to double depression and his grades, how will he deal with a new kid in his class? Will all his secrets be revealed? And will the bullying stop? Dan crosses Phil on his first day, and things don't start in the best way. Phil doesn't need help, but Dan is adamant he helps the boy through his years at college. What will happen when things turn upside-down for the both of them? Warnings: mentions of selfharm, bullying, mild swearing, sexual references and boy boy pairings. Not recommended for people under the age of 13. ©chloemitzu

(Warning, self-harm and violence.) Dan Howell and Phil Lester have been through a lot of bad things in their sixteen years of living, things that will scar them forever, mentally and physically. When they find each other they feel happy together, but things get worse. The thing that they want to know is.. was their relationship a blessing or a curse?