What happens when you strongly believe nothing is real and feelings and emotions are just hallucinations? Ask Johnnie. He can tell you in a poem. But when Johnnie meets Kyle, he has a strong feeling he's never felt before, and he doesn't know if it's fake this time. **No smut** **Slight language warning** **Depressed/Suicidal thoughts and actions** **known to give people "existential crises"**

Kyle is seventeen and the most popular kid in school. But don't let his good looks and popularity fool you. Kyle is depressed and self harms and wants to die. The reason lies with in his personal life. Kyle won't let anyone into his life but what happens when he meets the funny, weird , caring Johnnie Guilbert to take him out of his trance. Johnnie is the outcast nobody ever notices him yet he still manages to make the best of everything even as the "school nerd". --- Does anyone even like this?! THIS DOES HAVE SMUT