Haunted. Terrified. Alone. Those three words seem to be the only emotions that seventeen year old Gabriel Adams knows how to feel. At the age of thirteen, when other boys were chasing after pretty girls and playing in the dirt, Gabriel had been kidnapped and molested. Now, several years later, Gabriel still can't return to the normal life he'd lived before the Incident. He's terrified of the dark, and even the daytime gives him anxiety attacks. Gabriel hates being touched. A simple brush against him will set him off into spasms while panic quickly takes over his mind. It seems as if nothing will relieve Gabriel from the constricting, painful claws of the man who'd done him harm, and Gabriel is becoming desperate. That's when Evan Ricci steps in. Evan, a stubborn yet surprisingly selfless teenager, moves to the small, quiet town of Clydesdale Heights. When Evan sees a small, awkward blond haired boy carrying pop boxes across the street while he's bringing moving boxes into the new house, he decides to help him. Things don't go exactly as planned, though, and their relationship begins with a rather rough start. The two eventually learn to bond, and Evan helps Gabriel learn to deal with the psychological consequences of being molested, which eventually blooms into an understanding so deep they can't imagine themselves with anyone but the other. A hint of infatuation sparks up, but not quite yet will the love blossom out like most. Their love will take time. And lots of patience and persistence, too.

Second place winner in WPAfterdark April Fools Competition. *** Jim is running out of excuses to talk to the cute mechanic down the road. He's given his truck tyres so many punctures he might as well buy new ones. When he's caught red handed, in the act by the very man he's doing it for however will he explain himself. ********************************************************************* Copyright © 2017 by @notbackingdown All rights reserved. No part of this book may be reproduced, copied or printed without express permission from the Author. %%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%% Important My books are written explicitly for a MATURE AUDIENCE 18 YEARS AND OLDER. There will be some instances/scenes/suggestions of sexual acts, crude language and will portray gay relationships between males. If you do not enjoy stories of this nature please leave now. I will not condone/defend/accept any sort of attacks on my stories, my characters or myself. It is well within your right to choose what type of entertainment you prefer but I will not be blamed for your curiosity. Read at your own risk. *******************************************************************

Fire fighter Damion Tazzo lives life on the edge; running into burning buildings, saving lives and saving the day. He knows what it means to take risks but most of all, he knows how to be discreet. He doesn't do emotional entanglements, not when the life he has is fraught with so much danger and uncertainty, but a chance meeting with a sweet little sub at the first gay bar he's been to in years, has him throwing all caution to the wind, and taking the little guy home with him. He only wants sexual release, what he doesn't expect is the beautiful, trusting eyes, and the tenderness that washes over him when he wraps his new lover in his arms. Now he has to fight against emotions he'd rather do without, and thoughts of a life he has never wanted before. He's a man who knows how to do his job, but there are only two things he can't tame, and that's his beating heart, and the fire between the sheets.

ON HIATUS - CURRENTLY REWRITING "The first thing he noticed was the way he walked. Slow but noticeable, his hips swayed with a secuctive gait. Stefan couldn't help it, his eyes trailed along with every movement. He watched as the boy brushed past a newsstand and knocked over a sheet of paper. Instead of ignoring it, he stopped and slowly bent down to pick it up. The muscles in his legs stretched sensually, and without realizing it, Stefan had leaned forward in his seat. And as if a force was pulling them together, their eyes met." ~~~ Asce: Nineteen years old, and the most innocent boy you will ever meet. Stefan: Thirty two, and a professor with a dark past. What happens when a series of unexpected events lead these two together? Will they stay safe and stay sane, or will they cross the line of no return? ~~~ *MATURE CONTENT* Contains manxboy, and a ton of sexiness, if you aren't comfortable, don't read. Updates will be random! Highest Rankings: Homosexual #4 Sad #177 Romance #243

Part 3 Thomas is a curious little thing, too bad he is painfully shy. He covertly watches his fellow classmate Sammy whenever he gets the chance. Rumor has it that Sammy is a submissive, and the stunning collar he wears around his neck is symbol of his Dominant's ownership. Thomas is a brilliant art student. One who has been quietly researching the BDSM lifestyle and he's dying to know what it is like to have that kind of upfront honesty in a relationship even if it's a brief one. Thomas was intrigued by the thought of belonging to someone, and being strictly honest and straight with the person you are with. He so wanted to know what it's like to have someone fully devote themselves to you and your well being. He wasn't so sure about the canes, and the pain factor of the lifestyle, but even that didn't deter his curiosity. If he could just develop the nerve to approach the only person he knew that could possibly introduce him to what he wanted, then he would be fine or at least he hoped so. Part 4 Callum O'Connor was referred to Club Bliss by his friend and current employer Nolan, owner and Master Dominant of The Dungeon. His boss had set up a meeting with friend and the owner of Bliss, Julius. Callum was very impressed with the club and the assortment of Dominants that Bliss had to offer. The security screening done at Bliss was almost as amazing as Nolan's club, The Dungeon. But as Nolan's head chef at the club, he didn't want to mix business with pleasure. After overcoming a heart wrenching past, Callum finally felt that he was ready to immerse himself back in the lifestyle after what happened with his last Master. Hopefully he didn't make the wrong decision, and hopefully he can get a second chance in finding the connection to a Dominant he so desperately needed.

"There is a charm about the forbidden that makes it unspeakably desirable" Anatoly Denisov, or Tolya, used to be a delinquent and member of a gang, as the tattoos on his skin testify. After leaving the gang, Tolya had to work hard to re-build his past relationships especially with his twin brother, Dima. Nothing was simple, but he realized how his family and friends were more than ready to give him a second chance. Oleg Azarov, personal assistant and bodyguard of Tolya and Dima's father, was the man that made Anatoly open his eyes and face reality through harsh and effective methods and bike races, the only common passion they apparently share. But something happened when following the duties. Oleg grew attached to Anatoly in a way he could not afford, as he could not develop feelings for someone 14 yrs younger, and especially not for the son of the man that gave him a new life. There is a line clearly marking duties and loyalty and Oleg is not man to cross it. Anatoly calls Oleg a "sadistic and scary bastard" and cannot stand the fact he always speaks of duties whenever he refers to him, but there is something he can't deny: the burning physical attraction he feels for that man. Yet, he totally refuses to listen to his desire. But what happens to this equilibrium when Anatoly, the forbidden fruit and sweetest temptation, decides that he wants Oleg and will have him no matter what? What happens when constant temptation is first offered unintentionally and then deliberately, slowly scratching the line marking borders forbidden to cross? What will happen when forgotten past comes back to taunt Tolya? Duties, desires, principles, remorse, lust, attraction, obligation, guilt, rules, forbidden, allowed, bike races, adrenaline, excitement, resolution, need, gangs war, possessiveness, unleashed emotions, uncontrollable feelings and love. The love you cannot resist, the love you cannot fight. All clashes and fuses and confuses in this story of forbidden love.

"I know you and I are not about poems or other sentimental bullshit, but I have to tell you that even the way you drink coffee knocks me the fuck out." - Axel Clark has responsibilities. After his father left and his mother became an alcoholic, he took it upon himself to take care of his younger sister, Abby. Doing two part jobs, keeping his grades up, maintaining his position as captain of the swim team, and coming home in time to read Abby a bed time story every night, he's exhausted. He doesn't have time for romance, nor does he have the energy. That is, until, he meets Xavier Alexander. Xavier is content with his life, or so he tells himself. He's a jolly, outgoing and loud mess of a person who has a wonderful girlfriend, amazing friends, loving parents, a cool sister and average grades, but he stills feels like his life is incomplete. However, he thinks it's just a teenage phase, and takes a job at a local pizzeria to kill his boredom. And then he meets Axel Clark. And then on one fateful night when the two boys meet, their worlds collide and their lives begin changing in ways they'd never imagined. All cover credit goes to the wonderfully talented @mydearcc

Renmen Bijou, a sweet and caring 18 year old boy. Who loves children and cares for them. Currently, he works at a baby daycare, in New York. Going to University and working hard so he can finally become a pediatrician. He's the only child, of two parents. Unforuntately for him, he has to deal with the consequences, of his father's gambling addiction. He loves his father, but...this time...his father really messed up. Bringing debt in the family, debt of 4 million dollars. Now, how in the world are they ever going to pay back the debt. That's where Renmen comes in, he's forced to become the "wife" of a cold, emotionless, and possessive insanely rich man. There is no other solution, but to be with the man and deal with his controlling attitude. Renmen keeps on reminding himself, that he is doing this for his family, this powerful man can easily ruin and destroy his family. What could the cold-hearted man want from cute little Renmen? Someone to satisfy his needs, someone to actually care for him and not his money, or someone to love him, even though his personality is cruel. Nicolas Guerriero has everything, just name it. The only thing he donesn't have is someone to hold at night. Sure, he had many lovers, he's known to be a well-known player. Those flings mean nothing to him. He's just looking for someone he can always love, and hopes that person can love him, not his money. So, when he lays his eyes on sweet little Renmen, he knew he had to make him his. Sadly for innocent Renmen, when this posessive man wants something, he always gets it.

A work-related injury leaves special agent Michael O'Connolly forced to part ways with the FBI on an extended sick leave. He's been out of commission for weeks and is desperately ready for some action, but when he grabs hold of a filthy street kid, trying to pick his pockets, he gets more than he bargained for. Nineteen year old Jason Thames was accustomed to hard living. The streets had been his life for more years than he cared to remember. He did whatever he could to survive, but one cold, wet night he picks the wrong pocket, and gets caught up in a world he never thought he could have. The agent is harsh and intimidating, but he wants to help him, even when he discovers that Jason has a two year old son; Little Timmy. Over time, the attraction between the two men simmers, and Michael finds himself falling for both his house guests, but how can he hope for a future when the present is so riddled with uncertainty?