Phil doesn't talks. Well, not anymore. The last time he said something, was when he didn't hate himself. And that was a long time ago. But now, everything is different. He must struggle with depression, whilst new boy Dan Howell desperately attempts to win him over. [Warning: this could be triggering at some points]

To: Phil Phil, it's Dan. Please talk to me. I'm dying here.

Dear Phil, It's three am. I can't sleep. So, I'm writing to you.

Dan is a dancer, but it's his best kept secret. Moving to a new college results in new friends, new hobbies and a new outlook in life; but what does it really mean to be human? A series of strange and seemingly unconnected events unfold that all seem to link back to Dan's mysterious new boyfriend. etcetc phan with kickthestickz This story carries some warnings, however they're p much all spoilers except non-graphic violence and injury on one occasion, and non-described minor character death. No major character death and no self harm. Please message me if you think you'll need to know the TWs! To avoid spoilers, you can give me a list of things you don't want to read for whatever reason and I'll let you know if they're in the fic or not :)

A mixture of conversations between Dan and Phil by texts. Enjoy.

My body was on autopilot, and there was no captain in control. Nothing I felt, or knew 'deep down' matters at this point because the only thing that truly matters to a bitch in heat is an Alpha to claim them.

Dan Howell is a timid boy, who always does as he is told. He was once friends with Phil Lester, the 'bad influence' who soon ditches Dan for the popular group in Year 7. After five years of not talking to each other, they're partnered in a project and Phil's wants to win Dan over just like he has with most of their year. But yet, Dan is determined to find out what Phil is hiding behind his arrogant mask.

phil Is watching the radio show from Florida and gets massively turned on by seeing dan with his lips around a trumpet.

Phan/AU/fantasy(kinda) >> 'how could someone possibly fuck up their Determination that badly dude, we've got some serious shit to cover' he says, laughing. I didn't respond with anything but laughter, but I wasn't going to mind spending so much time with him.

Dan Howell is a new student at the most prestigious preparatory school in England. Phil Lester is the bad boy, often referred to as The Boy From The North. No one knows much about him except that. Dan falls head over heels for Phil even though people say to stay away from him. Dan tries to befriend Phil, but Phil pushes him away while also bullying Dan for being different. Will Phil ever open up and be nice? Or will Dan's world come crashing down?