*'BEST PHANFICTION' WINNER (FANFICTION AWARDS 2018)* Daniel has anxiety and crumples paper to calm himself down. Phil has ADHD and diminishes hearts to bring himself up.

SEQUEL TO ALIVE Phil's life is in shambles. A third year university student, he lives a less-than-extraordinary life: ignoring calls from his ex-best-friend, working in a local shop, and sleeping around to forget the one thing always on his mind: Dan Howell. TW: language, sexual content, drug mentions ENTIRELY WRITTEN FROM PHIL'S POV

Sequel to "Kik | phan" since everyone wanted one! "Hello guys Jamie here! And this is my YouTube channel" Dan and Phil got married and adopted two beautiful children. At the age of 15 Jamie, their daughter decided to start her own YouTube channel. But soon started to receive hate for her parents being gay and other things. Dan and Phil don't realize it because they are so busy with their own career and raising their son , Dil, who has schizophrenia. How will Jamie be able handle it all alone? {COMPLETED} **NO SMUT** **TRIGGER WARNING**

{COMPLETED} Phil was mute, alone and bullied. Dan was outgoing, popular, and a bully. But when he starts developing feelings for Phil, what happens? -once again not good at summaries but give it a try-

Today I could have sworn he saw me... but he didn't do anything. Just simply shook his head like he was judging my life and then turned over in his bed. I'll go back tomorrow..

"Phil... I'm depressed" "Oh my god, me too! I get so down in the dumps sometimes it's ju-" "No. Phil. I have depression" "Oh." ~ triggers: -self harm (cutting) -depression + depressing thoughts -suicidal thoughts + suicide -gay slurs + other derogatory words -abuse -alcohol addiction -rape -murder ~ #144 in Fanfiction ~ completed - 25/9/16

11:11pm "I wish my my life was easier. I wish I was happy. I wish my dad wasn't so mean. I wish my mom was still alive.-" 11:12pm "-I wish Philip Michael Lester loved me back." [Dans life was horrid. But he tried not to let it show at school. Read about dans journey about him overcoming his life problems and falling in love with a straight boy named Phil Lester.] WARNING: Triggering Self harm Smut Boyxboy Side pairings (kickthestickz, phinzie, etc) !!!!!!!THIS IS A PHAN BOOK SO IF DAN AND PHIL dATE SOMEONE ELSE IT IS NOT PERMANENT!!!!!!!!!

Phil Lester is a good boy. Dan Howell is the bad boy. Complete opposites. What would happen if they both find out they love each other? Phil doesn't really believe him, but Dan tries to show him. How does he show him? Well by lots of sex and... Just some nice things Cover by: @Phantastic_5ever