Phil can't control his thoughts but he can control his actions. Dan can't control his actions but he can control his thoughts. Phil flashes through memories of his best friend and the one he may love Daniel James Howell not being able to keep them quite. Dan doesn't know how to express his feelings to his best friend...
dan howell pondered over philip lester. often constructing his beautiful structure on many of his sketchpads. dan was considered the lonely boy, the awkward outsider until he was shown the sun. - lonely!boy howell popular!boy lester - possible trigger warning/violence swearing