[trigger warning] June 3rd, 3:43 Am, 2009 Dear Diary, I don't know why I'm returning here, relying on thin pages to solve my problem; but here I am anyways. It won't fix my issues by writing them and crying but at least it eases my raging thoughts, making them rush to a halt. This small worn out diary is a reminder, life has no happy endings like they do in books or movies: the world is harsh and cold. The world waits for no one, the world is a rush of lights, people and of course pain. I am glass, broken glass with rigged edges and sharp corners. My skin is torn like a teddy bear ripped at the seams from the hands of abuse: but in this story, I am my own abuser. My body is a gallery of scars and thick red lines, each with meaning and a background story. when will my pain end? [Dan Howell]

Dan Howell is a new boy at Phil's school. One day Phil gets a kik message from him... Warning self harm and attempted suicide

Dan Howell and Phil Lester share a passion for soccer. When they make it onto their school's team, they are determined to impress the coaches and their teammates. The two boys are too caught up in competition to realize that they are more alike than it seems, instead drinking while underage and bringing home bad report cards. But then one night they find each other at a party, and suddenly their relationship is moving faster than a ball flying towards the goal.

THIRD BOOK IN THE 'STAINED' SERIES Dan and Phil are desperate to survive- so desperate that the two decide to become more than just a duo, and bring in whoever they can find to help them get out of this alive. The group is targeted, framed, and attacked by many who want their revenge. They can't sleep, eat, or even blink without being watched. Even with their new allies helping them, that doesn't mean they'll be able to keep the couple alive. Not if they're already dead inside. [RATED R FOR LANGUAGE, GORE AND/OR VIOLENCE]

SECOND BOOK IN THE 'STAINED' SERIES After running away together, Dan and Phil live their life in London, keeping their past locked up. Either way, nothing has changed. In fact, things have gotten worse for the two boys. After Dan pulled the trigger on the gun, he hasn't been the same since. Dan and Phil are now the most wanted criminals in the UK for many things, but one crime strains their relationship forever last: murder. [rated R for language, violence and/or gore]

*'BEST SERIES' WINNER (FANFICTION AWARDS 2017)* FIRST BOOK IN THE 'STAINED' SERIES Meet Phil Lester, a bad boy with blood on his hands. Literally. After one night strikes, Phil turns to a group of serial killers as a distraction and soon he finds himself with a trail of dead bodies at his own fault. Meet Dan Howell, a shy boy with flowers in his hair and nail polish on his fingers. Friendless and full of anxiety, he remains alone, until said serial killer with tattoos and piercings sits right next to him in the same support group. Phil finds himself falling for Dan when his mission is to kill him, and he wants to get close, even if that means spilling the unwanted truth- and a bit of blood. (punk!phil meets pastel!dan) [rated R for language and violence/gore]

[All triggers and warnings will be stated at the beginning of each chapter] Dan regrets everything and Phil misses him. But the thing most needed in a relationship was lost. Trust. *** Phil doesn't know what to do with his life and Dan's is encouraged by his parents. Their lives were miserable and they were each others happiness. They don't want to live without eachother, but is anyone going to do anything about this skinny love? [COMPLETED 24th February] ©likeplzphanyounot 2016

Dan is bullied, Phil is a bully Finished October 31st 2016 All rights reserved @midnightphanfic 2016 {trigger warning! Don't read if you're triggered by physical + verbal bullying, gay slurs and suicidal thoughts}

-Sequel to 'bully'- Dan's moved schools, to avoid the ruthless tormenting again from Chris and Phil. He's started going to a lgbtq+ support group and is shocked when his homophobic bully Phil turns up - TRIGGER WARNING - Self-harm, anxiety attacks, blood, hospitals, bullying I would suggest not reading this is self-harm triggers you

a group chat on twitter brings two boys together.