"Did you know me? Have you seen me on your TV? They're still looking." -Nicole Dollanganger (Have You Seen Me?) ***Trigger warnings for abuse, kidnapping, blood, gore, violence, brutality, and probably a lot more.***

"Pressure to go strike out on your own Pressure to learn from being alone Pressure to not leave it for too long Before you find another heart where you belong." -Julia Jacklin (Pressure to Party) This book is an au of my other stories, Lividity and Creek Blues. The characters are exactly the same, except they've been to therapy and have a bit more stability in their home lives. It can be read as a stand-alone fic too!

I was scared. Too scared to tell Komaeda that I loved him. But when the perfect opportunity arose, there was nothing I could do to stop myself from telling him the truth. It was after the murder of a close friend, and I soon found he was visiting to make sure I was okay. I was terrified to say anything, despairing over the idea of him rejecting me, but... I had to know. (TW: SELF-HARM, SUICIDAL THOUGHTS AND ATTEMPT, INTERNALIZED AND EXTERNALIZED HOMOPHOBIA) The characters, some phrases, and some locations belong to the creators of Danganronpa. But the story itself is mine. (TW: SELF-HARM) DISCLAIMER: This story was written a very, very long time ago. Some of the topics covered, such as more frequent and normalized self-harm and one particular character fetishizing gay men, are not ideas that I agree with since the five years ago this was written. I want to make it clear that self-harm and suicidal ideation are not things to be romanticized, and that gay men are in fact diverse and complex people, who are not all one-minded. I did not necessarily think the latter at the time this was written, but it certainly could come across that way at certain points in this story. If anyone thinks I should change something to more realistically portray gay men, or to avoid romanticizing self-harm and suicidal ideation, please message me or leave a comment. I appreciate your understanding. -MadiWritez