it's only a game. isn't it?

" Phil Lester is on the edge of suicide. " or in which Dan can see everyone's deepest secret simply by looking at them.

" the poor can't have enough and the richest can't have it all. " Dan Howell and his family are poor - they struggle to make ends meet. Dan has one passion in life - art. Unable to find a canvas, Dan makes the alleys at night his canvas - turning the walls into paintings. Phil Lester - the richest and loneliest kid around - finds the paintings, and soon finds himself drawn to the beautiful graffiti, which is only ever blue.

Dan and Phil are both seniors and active members of the drama club. This year, Dan fully intends to get the lead and take it away from Phil. However, when he finds out that Phil and him are casted as a couple, things get heated.

Dan is different. He's learned to accept that. Well, as best he can anyway, considering he's never really had much of a choice. It's been this way for as long as he can remember, the constant runaround process of trying to feel normal. His life is built around it, trying to trick both himself and everyone he interacts with into seeing him as your average person. The isolation as he desperately tries to keep others from finding out, the bitterness that wells up inside of him each and every time he's reminded that he'll never be like everyone else, the fear that nothing will ever change. He's fated to be this way forever; a misfit from society. Isolation can only go so far though, so when he's struggling to make ends meet and he's faced with the option of looking into a serious job or taking on a roommate, he opts for what seems like the easier option at the time. It doesn't seem so easy ten failed roommates into the process, or when he sits down at a table to meet with prospect number eleven and ends up with a coffee spilled all over his lap. Potential roommate number eleven, Phil, turns out to be an insufferable optimistic ball of sunshine that Dan wants nothing to do with. His options are running out though, as are the savings he's been using to pay his rent, so he finds himself begrudgingly agreeing to let the other man move in. Neither of them have any way of knowing just what they've gotten themselves into as they shake on the matter, but time will tell.

dan was a socially anxious boy that relied on alcohol to talk to new people. phil was a lonely boy who tried to make everyone's lives better but he deeply and truly needed someone the most. constructive criticism and your opinions are very appreciated so don't be afraid to comment!

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"hey i'm phil and whoever didn't show up, is a dick," ; copyright © 2016

[complete] finding a girl who is equally pretty won't be hard ; copyright © 2017

where dan is a struggling music artist and phil is a cocky, successful and a sexually frustrated producer ; copyright © 2016 ; highest ranking #5