What if you fall in love with one of your best friends and don't even accept that you're gay? This is what happens to Connor Franta. He always knew that he was different but when he started to develop feelings for one of his best friends, Troye Sivan, he tried to deny it. He tried to push those feelings away, he didn't want to be gay at least that's what he always said to himself. But what if his feelings become so strong that he can't just ignore them any longer. Will he ever be able to accept those feelings or will he always keep ignoring them? Will he talk about it or just keep bottling everything up that's going on in his life? What if all those feelings just get too much to handle? Will he break or finally accept them?

- won first place in the summer 2015 x reader fanfiction awards - You feel like your life is one big existential crisis. You can't get a job, your landlord is an asshole (to put it lightly), and your mum is incredibly overprotective. You feel lost... until you meet HIM. (featuring end of 2014 - early 2016 Dan) *UNDER SEVERE EDITING - MAY NOT MAKE SENSE* *** incredibly cliché, read at own risk. occasional swearing (censored) and mentions of mature themes. one scene of abuse. enjoy! *** ©phangirlingweirdo