She just came into my life out of nowhere, you know? My world was dark. No future, no way out. No light. But then she came. Suddenly I had a reason. She ain't even have to try; she just somehow found a way into my heart. She was my purpose. She was my light. She was so pure, so untainted by the horrors of this world; the complete opposite of me. I was meant to be alone. I knew then I didn't deserve her. But fuck it. She was the one.

Success doesn't equate happiness. I've had to learn that the hard way over the years. With every disappointment, every let down, every heartbreak, my solution was to just achieve something. Gain a new award, a higher accolade, a bigger position. The distractions only work temporarily, but once it dies down you realize that you're left with just you. You realize that you're still alone, still a failure in other aspects of life, and still hiding from the past. My name is Brynn. I got married at nineteen to my college sweetheart, and at the age of twenty four I found myself packing up and leaving him in the middle of the night. During that ungodly hour is when everything starts to hit you, when everything begins to resurface. My husband never attempted to come after me, never even attempted to reach out to me. Yet I still find myself going to sleep with him on my mind. I can still feel his touch if I dream hard enough. I still find myself keeping up with his social media, following his life from a distance. Only in that ungodly hour do I let my fantasies roam free and allow myself to miss him. I allow myself to still love him, still care for him. As long as I know that once morning hits it's back to business, back to being distracted, and back to being alone.

A rider? A rider is a girl who is in it for the long run, a girl who will stay with you and a girl who has your back no matter what.

SEQUEL: Please make sure you've read envy FIRST in order to understand everything. Some chapters may be private so follow me to make sure you can see everything. 🔥 STARTED 28TH JULY 2018.

Summary || Plot "I was warned about boys like you." Folding her arms Moenice was getting hot under the stare of Theo's beautiful brown eyes. "Oh yeah. What exactly were you warned about?" Taking a step closer, Theo knew what he was doing, he knew how he made Moenice feel. "All boys just want one thing, they come sniffing, begging, chasing after it." Moenice wasn't about to let Theo see the real her. To her he was just like the other brothers around here, feening for something that could easily fuck up both lives. "Good thing I'm a grown. Ass. Man." Grabbing her face, he spoke slowly against her lips. He kept one hand around her waist and the other tilting her head back. "And this grown ass man ain't with that little boy shit." Trying to catch her breath Moenice was almost under his control, she knew what he was doing and knew just how to fight back. "Show me." Slowly pulling his hand off her face she whispered in his ear nibbling on his earlobe to arouse him. "Actions speak volume Theo." Closing her door quietly she leaned against it. Theo was absolutely no good for a good girl like Moenice, but she seemed to be breaking all the rules anyway. ~*~*~*~* Welcome to Brownsville NY. You got your Gang bangers, drug dealers, Crack heads, and a few loving people that actually want to make it some place. Coming up around here someone was always getting in trouble, or killed. Moenice always swore she would never get caught up in that life. But what happens when she meets Theodore, one of the most smooth talking drug dealers around the block. As her 18th birthday approaches, life as Moenice knows it changes and breaking all the rules is exactly what she has to do. Love wasn't what either expected, but can love be enough to save both their lives, from a world full of hate and Crime?

Victoria Gregorio is all grown up and determined to let the whole world know it. After shedding her good-girl image to catch the eye of the senior partner of her law firm, Victoria travels down the road of no return. After being estranged from her mother for seven years Victoria isn't looking to mend bridges, she has everything she could possible want, the perfect job, the perfect man, the perfect life. When Dante Jones enters her life, everything begins to change. Dante is willing to show Victoria what's missing from her so-called perfect life.