Dan Howell is invisible. That's all he knows how to be. Terrified of standing out, he is happy going unnoticed by his peers, finding company in only the old rock and roll songs on his iPod. But Dan's life is turned upside-down when a boy in his drama class takes him under his wing, introducing him to a world of excitement he never could have imagined. Through the good and the bad, Dan's new life thrills him and leaves him wondering ...what does it mean to truly be alive? pairs: Phan and KickTheStickz tw: language, sexual content, abuse, depression, death, suicide, medication, drugs, parents, alcohol ENTIRELY WRITTEN FROM DAN'S POV Note: This fic features no main character death, only mentions of death.

SEQUEL TO ALIVE Phil's life is in shambles. A third year university student, he lives a less-than-extraordinary life: ignoring calls from his ex-best-friend, working in a local shop, and sleeping around to forget the one thing always on his mind: Dan Howell. TW: language, sexual content, drug mentions ENTIRELY WRITTEN FROM PHIL'S POV

Phil Lester is sweet and cute; known for his kindness and enthusiasm. Dan Howell is a tough, cold outsider; known as the school's stereotypical 'bad boy'. But if he's so bad, then why on earth did he rescue Phil Lester and give him a smile which would melt anyone's heart?

Dan Howell, the school 'nerd'. Yeah, that's the clique he has been put into. He's shy, has a passion for theatre, loves to draw, wears flower crowns, button up shirts, and pastel sweaters. The popular group bullying him constantly, pulling flowers out his flowers crowns, crumbling his drawings, physically harming him, calling him names, and taking any and every moment to call him out about his feminine appearance. He hasn't had many friends except for his best and only friend, Pj. He hasn't had much luck in his life but will something or someone turn that around? Phil Lester, the school punk. He is the kind of person parents fear their child dating. Piercings, tattoos, but what no one suspects is his soft personality. No one really cares to get to know him due to 'status quo'. He doesn't mix in with the popular crowd that is constantly bullying Dan. He's more of a loner, but still playfully teases Dan time from time. So in reality: he is a fucking dork. •Mentions of bullying, depression, anxiety, may have smut idk, homophobia, under-aged drinking, pheels overload• •I don't own dan or phil, or the concept of pastel! dan or punk! phil• I WILL MURDER YOU IF YOU STEAL THIS

Young love is a lot more than just chemicals inside your head, it's a lot more than just having a petty crush on a hot guy that sits in front of you, young love is the start of emotions; the beginning of learning how to love. Might be a lil cringe as I never intended for this to become my first full on phanfiction, regardless I hope you enjoy.

PREVIOUSLY CALLED PASTEL AND PUNK Dan Howell and Phil Lester are best friends, Phil being respected due to him having a punk look, and Dan being looked down upon for his own pastel one. Dan begins to receive letters, though, in his locker. They start friendly but slowly get more flirty... and Dan doesn't mind. He wonders who it is though, and even starts to wonder a few things about himself too. Who keeps sending him this letters mysteriously signed "L", and are they really as nice as they sound? (Pastel Goth Dan and Punk Phil AU courtesy of llster on Tumblr)

"Today's draw Phil naked is.." "Okay anyway guys see you soon bye!" Phil leaned over to switch off the camera and as he did a tear streamed down his face. "How am I meant to keep this up, pretending I'm so happy when I'm not, this is all getting too mu..." WARNING: MAY BE TRIGGERING

"I'll be your home." "You already were to begin with."

Phil is scared of storms and is being kept up by one one night. What happens when Dan finds him curled up in the kitchen, frozen in fear?