•wherein Brendon Urie sends angry letters to Ryan Ross,the golden eyed boy who ruined his life with a secret from the past. •warning; sad

In which Brendon cleans the apartment of published author Ryan Ross to finance his college studies, and Spencer opens up an Indian style café and hires Jon to brew his fair trade coffee. Excerpt: Brendon sorts through Ryan's bathroom utensils while Nirvana is blasting from the speakers in the living room. Two tubes of toothpaste join a peaceful parade next to lip balm, moisturizing cream, aftershave and eyeliner that appears to have dried up. It honestly wouldn't have taken Spencer's insinuation to figure out that Ryan's not entirely straight. To be fair, the lube in the bedroom drawer was a tiny clue, too, and yes, Brendon might have been snooping just a little. Anyone who's in the middle of reading Ryan's book would be curious, and Brendon's especially curious where Ryan hides all the drugs he must have been doing during the writing process, churning out page after page when he was only nineteen. Against the background of Behind the Sea, it's also easier to make sense of the scribbled notes Ryan leaves lying around, the tone and particular way in which Ryan phrases things slightly more familiar. Some of them have Brendon's fingers itching with music. Ryan's writing is even more lyrical when it's torn out of context, isn't bundled up neatly within a chapter. Brendon refrains. It's really not his place to leave a mark like that on things he's merely supposed to straighten up. Link to the original story: http://zarah5.livejournal.com/35320.html

If there's something left to be learned then my time is running. Why should I waste it all wasted on you? Brendon Urie is broken hearted by the one he never expected to be broken by. He's trying to deal.

Sometimes it's okay to skip out on a dare. Ryan learns that the hard way.

When Panic! At The Disco went up to that cabin to do whatever the hell they did up there, Ryan Ross and Brendon Urie confessed their feelings for each other. 4 years later, and they're still happy together and living with each other, with an album about to be released the following week. But, when walking in the park with his boyfriend, Brendon gets a scary idea: he wants to marry Ryan.

Gerard has been running away for as long as he can remember: away from the hunters, away from his past, and away from himself most of all. Besides his brother and Ray, he has been alone for time untold. But his constant dreams refuse to be left in the dust, and it is reaching the point where Gerard is convinced he is going insane, all because of this dark haired man whose name he doesn't even know. ~~~ Vampire AU *trigger warning for blood, gory scenes, and character deaths* Completed Playlist: https://player.spotify.com/user/zookrates/playlist/0ErnzVg2cyiKsU1CNDrrHd

"People like us should and could always have it easier in life." Brendon snorted. "People like us? We have nothing in common." "Sure we do." He smirked over the rim of his little red cup. "We're both pretty."

"You're gonna have to pay to touch me."

Author: repulsive_x on Livejournal. ALL CREDITS FOR THIS WONDERFUL STORY GO TO THIS AUTHOR! Rating: NC-17 POV: 1st, Brendon’s Summary: Brendon develops a little crush on the pastor’s son.

ALL CREDITS GO TO "fullcollapse" on livejournal for this absolutely beautiful story. Mostly AU, high school age setting. With the help of his friends, Ryan has just learned how to like life. Brendon hasn't yet found such luck. This is a story about strong relationships, trust, not wanting to be alone, and holding hands. There's a river, and just like its never-ending path to the ocean, some things just go on forever. Sometimes you need someone more than you need yourself, and sometimes, that's okay. Rating: R. Word count: 200,000+