When they finally are allowed to take a 18 months break Harry surprises Louis by asking for a break too, from their marriage. Harry goes to L.A. to figure out who he is while Louis stays in London. Harry writes an album and Louis deals with his mothers sudden illness. Purely fictional. Warning: druguse, death.

"hoping this cold blue water scrubs me clean and spits me out again" This fic isn't mine! It was written by phantasmagoria (whiteteethteen) on AO3!