When Emily, a girl who suffers from depression, anxiety, and self harm, finds the guy she's been looking for, how could she not get closer? It's a difficult road, though, due to her depression, which keeps her isolated, anxiety, which makes it difficult for her to have contact, and her self harm, which she has to hide. Follow her through her battle with Love and Hate.

His fist came down hard on my cheek. I knew there was going to be a large bruise there in a few minutes. It was already pretty sore. 1. He grabbed me by my hair and slung me to the floor. His boot slammed into my stomach and blood poured into my mouth. 2. I kept counting until I let the darkness envelope me. I was thankful that you couldn't feel what was being done to you when you passed out. I dreamed of my three saviors from the horrific ordeal that was my life; Max, the sun, and... the blade. Hi, my name is Kyler, and this... is my life.

Ellen Dodson is not your average high school girl. She has depression and no friends. When Ellen was younger her father cheated with a next door neighbor leaving Ellen, her sister Natalie, and her mother Linda to fend for themselves. Linda is a alcoholic and Natalie cant stand the sight of Ellen, so together they make her life a living hell. Until one day Ellen gets a makeover and everything in her life changes. She suddenly has friends, a boyfriend, and a loving sister. But what if all of this newfound glory made Ellen forget who she use to be. Who she really was. Letting popularity and peer pressure get to her, Ellen becomes a monster and doesnt know how to be stopped, until a ex boyfriend finds a way to remind her who she use to be.