Hi I'm Terra Carlisle. I'm 17 and a junior in high school. I cut. I'm fat. I'm ugly. I'm worthless. I'm me. Everyone thinks I'm the one who is always happy but on the inside, I'm dying. I've been bullied for 3 years now and have been cutting the whole time. I want it to be normal again like it was in junior high. I used to have a best friend but then we kind of grew apart and now he is all popular. His name is Niall Horan. I just wish it would all change back to the way it used to be.