Book two of the disorder series X depression [dih-presh-uh n] Noun 1. Psychiatry. a condition of general emotional dejection and withdrawal; sadness greater and more prolonged than that warranted by any objective reason. X Definitions

They all have their differences; their different pasts, their different dreams, their different desires. When a new Foster Home opens up, and the four boys are housed there, differences will no longer matter as four boys come together to heal the wounds of their past. Lashton & Malum. Trigger Warning. -By @danyulaintonfiyah and @quantum-leaps

"Not our fault lukes fat!" Ashton yells with a giggle, Michael and Calum laugh at the drummers choice of a joke, all of them glancing back to the laptop. What everyone misses though is the way Luke frowns slightly, and presses a hand over his tummy, he rubs an arm up and down his side for the rest of the twitcam, 'lukes fat..lukes fat...lukes fat' He chants over and over in his head. 'I'll be perfect, i won't stop until i am perfect.'

"am i really that fat?" // lower case intended

"We stopped checking for monsters under our beds once we realized the monsters were inside of us." Ashton Irwin. A 16 year old Aussie entering his Junior year. Everyone either ignores him or bullies him to an extent. Other then the bullying, no one talks to him. He hates himself. Luke Hemmings. A 17 year old Aussie entering year 11 as well. Luke is usually really popular. Girls love him and even guys do. That's just who Luke is though, a person who is easy to get along with. He likes the way he looks. Ashton is depressed and suicidal whilst Luke is happy and bubbly. Ashton is gay. Luke is gay. But no one would actually like Ashton right? Or so he thought.

He kills the wolves mutilating their howls into silent smiles. But they always leave claw marks on his wrist. Ashton Irwin has a secret. A secret he will never tell a soul, he's kept this secret from home ever since he can remember causing him to be mute. He can speak, but prefers not too. Nobody ever pays attention to him. Nobody really bothers to get to know him... until he met Bonnie, the girl with the punk rock attitude and the rose tattoo. Bonnie befriends with Ashton, both slowly falling in love with one another. Thinking that Bonnie will give up on him, Ashton realises that he needs to speak to her. He wants to confess his love for her, but he fears that his biggest secret might just come pouring out.