about the girl that loved colors almost as much as she loved him. book one of the suicide series.

Wattys 2015 Winner of the People's Choice Award! "You have to realize, of course, that love doesn't always save the people you want to save." Pulling her way through the mayhem that is the NYC fashion industry, twenty-year-old Sierra finds herself hanging onto her dreams and the last shred of sanity she has left when she lands her dream job - the past she tries so hard to leave behind starting to catch up to her faster than she can outrun it. Luke Hemmings, the heartbroken rockstar that the world expects too much from - nothing seems to win over internal demons with a vengeance; a need to ruin himself and any form of happiness standing in his path to complete destruction. Can they be saved from their own minds? Or will the weight of all the love, sacrifice, and loss finally drag them down under for good? PLAYLIST: https://open.spotify.com/user/rhythmwithlove/playlist/5lpELt8izfMGECfE9JJUcU BOOK TRAILER: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=D5tMWCJLc5Q No translations allowed.

"Where am I supposed to start? Wow. I love you. I love you so much that it hurts. Okay, maybe that's the cancer."

"Why do you like the rain so much?" "It reminds me that I'm still alive." (Luke Hemmings Fanfiction) Copyright to Ashley Royer. All things written by Ashley Royer unless otherwise stated. Not affiliated with 5 Seconds of Summer or any other characters mentioned. THIS IS NOT THE FULL BOOK. The full book is published with changed names and can be bought wherever books are sold. AVAILABLE NOW WHEREVER BOOKS ARE SOLD. The published version has added chapters and everything has been edited.

Remember To Forget Sequel "Sometimes you lose someone, and it changes your life forever. But then, you find someone new and end up taking chances." Copyright to _smilelikeniall. Everything written by me unless stated otherwise. Please do not use my writing and/or ideas without permission. I do not allow translations. No affiliation with 5 Seconds of Summer.

New Country. New School. New Friends. New Life. New Beginning. Fresh Start. Clean Slate. Start Over. Have you ever wanted to move away and start all over again? That’s all Vanessa has ever wanted. She wants to move away from the life she has grown to hate and start her life all over again. Bullies. Abuse. Depression. Self-Hatred. Weak. Useless. Pathetic. Lost. Feeling unwanted and under-appreciated aren’t new feelings for young Vanessa Bell, living in constant fear and worry isn’t either. It can take just a few words to bring someone’s self-esteem plummeting for the ground and add a few bruises here and there and all self-worth will be lost. Feeling numb from all the pain is usually a good thing but when you’ve been hurt so much to the point where you don’t feel anything anymore. You’ll often find yourself asking “What is the point?” or “Why do I even bother?” Maybe Vanessa will find her way, maybe in a place called Sydney, maybe with the help of a boy named Luke. When Vanessa chooses to “Start All Over” maybe she’ll find it’s the best decision she’s ever made. {Warning: Will contain triggering thoughts and action and involves sensitive topics like depression, death, suicide and abuse} **This is very poorly written because when I wrote it I was 13 so please read knowing that I was a very dumb 13 year-old or read later when I've finished rewriting which is a slow process but I'm getting there, sorry** UNDERGOING EDITING COPYRIGHT © 2012-2013 CUDDLINGHEMMINGS