"tired blue boy walks my way, holding a girl's hand, that basic bitch leaves finally, now i can steal her man" - trigger warnings: depression, physical and emotional abuse, excessive drinking, and suicidal thoughts other warnings: possible smut - based on melanie martinez's pacify her, all rights to her.

"well, what can i say sweater boy, you and i mix as well as those damn paints on my brushes and the colors in those sunsets you love so much."

Daniel James Howell is a sixteen year old gay boy who dresses in pastels and flower crowns, and can't be bothered to straighten his hair. He listens to NeverShoutNever, Taylor Swift, and Oh Honey. So why on Earth does Phillip Lester, bad boy supreme, follow him, if he's only ever hung out with similarly punk friends with muscles and piercings and tattoos? Because there is no way, n-o w-a-y, that he could like Dan. Right?

you're the color of everything that's ever meant anything

the air smells like the promise of tomorrow and nothing has ever smelled more terrifying

Dan Howell secretly loves Phil Lester. Phil Lester secretly loves Dan Howell. Dan Howell is bullied. Phil Lester is best friends with Dan's bully. Dan Howell wants to die. Phil Lester is too afraid to stop him.

i was sinking, and i couldn't swim. {phan au} highest ranking - #10 in danandphil

" we're friends right? well, you can't really tell me otherwise anyway, which is probably why we're friends. " Or the story of an overenthusiastic boy called Phil, who has trouble shutting up, and a reluctantly mute boy called Dan, who's life is falling apart, and how they both come to realise that sometimes - actions can speak louder than words.

" my name's blurry face and I care what you think. " Dan Howell has an unknown condition where he cannot see faces - no matter what he wears or does - they are always a blur. The doctors nicknamed it 'blurry face', and there's absolutely nothing they can do about it; Dan will have to live without faces. That is, until he meets Phil Lester - the 'bad boy' of Dan's new school - who's face is strangely visible to Dan; much to Dan's wonder and Phil's distaste.