phan // in which a boy named dan leaves flowers with every step and phil wishes he could grow a garden in his small london apartment

Phil is a poor boy forced to marry another man. He's not very healthy and he's very anxious to be the husband of a rich man. The constant cloud of suicide and anxiety follows Phil Lester everywhere he goes and he struggles to fit into his new life. It's a good thing this man he marries is a good man and eventually Phil falls in love. 2019 edit- TRIGGER WARNING, CUTTING AND STUFF WARNING- 9 YEAR DIFFERENCE cover credit to- @AnnekaCannon

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dan is the best man at phil's wedding ; copyright © 2016

"Why are you always so sad and gloomy?" "What's so wrong with being sad?" "Everything."

Dan keeps having a dream about a boy who says he's from another world. It didn't make sense but not much in his life did. *TW: Psychosis, Slight drug use, sad ending*

(completed) in which dan and phil are paired by a necklace system where you and your soulmate have matching charms triggers: SUICIDE, SELF HARM! don't read if you're easily triggered by those things, i want to see you safe !!

TRIGGER WARNING. THIS STORY CONTAINS MENTIONS OF RAPE, SELF INJURY, DEATH AND ATTEMPTED SUICIDE. Can Dan save Phil? Phil is suicidal and Dan is the only one who's there for him. Can he alone save Phil?

a phanfic Dan and Phil arnt friend and Dan is a nerd whilst Phil is popular. but... you have to read it to find out mwahahahahah. also the chapters are very short like 200 words short. I also try and update at least once a day. READ THIS BOOK PLEASE!

Young Dan Howell, who lives with his alcoholic father, lost his mother to cancer less than a year ago, and is killing himself. Phil Lester, a boy picked on for his weight, lives alone from the rest of the world in a rehab center while trying to recover from severe anorexia. When a concerned teacher suggests Dan seek help, the two lonely worlds collide. Maybe all they need for help is each other. (Rating: Mature! Very angsty! Read at your own risk! Triggers: self harm, eating disorder, suicide. A little swearing. A little smutty, a little fluffy)