Zayn was always good at keeping secrets, especially ones that put his life in danger. When he decided to off himself, he gave no warning except for a small note on the counter top for Niall to find. He loved his boyfriend, but his personal conflicts went further than he ever let show. He knew if he ended everything, he couldn’t leave Niall alone. He would leave him with a little piece of him - his writing written in chronological letters. One for each day he would not be there in Niall’s life. [Ziall] [33,000+ words]