Full on smut I am re-uploading it cuz apparently it got deleted so I'm sorry again (not really)

The title explains it all

Description: Dan and Phil have been growing more distant from each other. Phil has been going up north more often and leaving Dan all alone, and it has gotten to the point where they don't talk for weeks on end sometimes they don't even acknowledge each other is there, and because of this, Dan can feel his slipping back to how he felt about life and himself in 2009 before Phil noticed him Parring: Dan Howell & Phil Lester Warnings: Depression, mentioning of self harm, self harm, mentioning of suicide, angst, swearing, A/N: this is a short fanfic I wrote based on 2012!Phan and inspired a bit by 2009 phan song and Goner by Twenty One Pilots Word Count: 4.4k words