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i was sinking, and i couldn't swim. {phan au} highest ranking - #10 in danandphil

Phil doesn't talks. Well, not anymore. The last time he said something, was when he didn't hate himself. And that was a long time ago. But now, everything is different. He must struggle with depression, whilst new boy Dan Howell desperately attempts to win him over. [Warning: this could be triggering at some points]

Phil Lester is sweet and cute; known for his kindness and enthusiasm. Dan Howell is a tough, cold outsider; known as the school's stereotypical 'bad boy'. But if he's so bad, then why on earth did he rescue Phil Lester and give him a smile which would melt anyone's heart?

Dan is happier than he could ever be, with his best friend Phil. Everything was in place, perfect, life was exciting again. Except everything seems different from Phil's side. Dan calls him names. Dan laughs behind his back. Dan humiliates him in front of everyone, and thus Phil just doesn't know how long he can take it. And then someone else comes onto the scene, things will completely turn on its head. Dan and Phil's happiness was meant to be short lived. ((this story is a sequel, but can be read without you having to read the first book! - "wake up, phil"))

'Oh God Phil, I know you've messed up in the past, but this time you've really done it.' Dan and Phil go to a restaurant one November evening to visit Dan's parents. It all seems like a pleasant evening, until Phil accidentally exposes his relationship with Dan, who knows his parents are severely homophobic. Mistakes are made, and Phil ends up in hospital. Dan, alone, waits for weeks for Phil to wake up from his coma state, until one day, he decides he can't wait any longer, so he tries to end his life to be with Phil, whom he thinks is dead. Phil wakes up, only to find Dan is not by his side, but on his way to a bridge over the Thames as he prepares to jump into the murky waters and take his own life. ( WARNINGS: swearing, a few TWs, anger and violence )

Phil Lester hasn't had the best past. He was bullied and tormented because of his sexuality and had no friends for a long time. He then moved to London where he met Chris and PJ who help get his life back on track again. Suddenly he's under a spell when 'The Lonely Prince' - Dan Howell walks into the room and smiles at him. Every time Phil sees Dan he gets butterflies in his stomach. Someone from his past is out for Phil and will do anything to prevent Dan from getting close to him. This is just creative writing. I am in no way suggesting they are a couple although if they were I'd probably die of happiness! Enjoy! ~HelloAnonymousWriter~

( ( slow updates ) ) Five years have passed since your wedding day, you now live happily with your husband, Dan, and your two beautiful daughters. Everything seems perfect - but, of course, nothing lasts forever. You tried your hardest to forget all of the unforgettable memories, but your broken past only comes back to haunt you...