CAUTION: Not in alphabetical order!!! WARNING: Some explicit language!!! This is my story expressed in symbolic poems. I have always wanted to be understood; but I went to great lengths to avoid it at the same time because of my fear of being hurt. I believe it showed in my poems, and that is why my poems are rich in symbolism. With heavy influences in each trial of my life, I feel like the messages I have tried to convey in each poem will be lost to even myself. Though some might view that as troubling; I disagree. Too me it is a testament to the truth that I am always changing and so is my perspective- my mentality. Aside from expressing the wonders of my mind; some content within were a spur of the moment, a topic given if you will. As such; there are some poems that accurately convey my feelings and thoughts and some that are just my mere imagination. I share my poems in hopes that some one somewhere can relate; may you enjoy all that I was...