because sometimes quiet is violent. - - - - piano. it's the only thing you had left. but now that's been ripped away from you, and you can feel fate laughing at you as you struggle through everyday life. which is why you don't believe fate is what brought you two together. - intentional lowercase - [ okay yes it's going to be sad I'm sorry ] [ but i'm not sorry?? enjoy ;) ]

Whilst filming a new episode of Sims 4, Phil accidentally downloads a faulty expansion pack that flips Dan and his' world upside down.

[Trigger Warning: Mentions suicide, self-harm, and eating disorders.] ©TheMeganHowell 2014 [The second installment in a very cringy trilogy. If you haven't read the first book, don't read this. If you read the first book, still don't read this.]

The third story in a very cringy trilogy. This one is probably the least cringe worthy. [Trigger Warning: Story lightly mentions self-harm, suicide, eating disorders, and depression. Do not read if you may be triggered by these subjects!] ©TheMeganHowell 2015

'Oh God Phil, I know you've messed up in the past, but this time you've really done it.' Dan and Phil go to a restaurant one November evening to visit Dan's parents. It all seems like a pleasant evening, until Phil accidentally exposes his relationship with Dan, who knows his parents are severely homophobic. Mistakes are made, and Phil ends up in hospital. Dan, alone, waits for weeks for Phil to wake up from his coma state, until one day, he decides he can't wait any longer, so he tries to end his life to be with Phil, whom he thinks is dead. Phil wakes up, only to find Dan is not by his side, but on his way to a bridge over the Thames as he prepares to jump into the murky waters and take his own life. ( WARNINGS: swearing, a few TWs, anger and violence )

[Trigger warning: Suicide, self-harm, eating disorders, and depression is mentioned many times in this story. Do not read if those things could trigger you.] Sadness and sorrow, you wouldn't expect those words to sum up the sister of Phil Lester, but they did.. She just feels like nothing. She needs someone to save her from herself. ©TheMeganHowell 2014 [Ahead of time, I would like to say that this was my first book after my long break from writing and me reading this is like Dan watching his first video. So much cringe. So it sucks. Stay away. Thanks.]

how far can you take a hook up? copyright © 2016

[complete] what happens at camp, stays at camp ; copyright © 2016

"Are you the devil?" "If you aren't a monster, then what are you? What can possibly be worse?" "A mad man." A Dan Howell fanfic. Warning Triggers: explicit language, sexual content, mental institutions, mental illnesses, drug use, gore. Mature content, some might find offensive. - Enjoy. ~ (Amazing cover by cliquot on Wattpad!)

i was sinking, and i couldn't swim. {phan au} highest ranking - #10 in danandphil