he repeats the process; C O M P L E T E tw ; self-harm, suicide, depression, major character death you can not read this story AT ALL if you get triggered by those topics

"Rose we can't look back we have to just keep running."

i was sinking, and i couldn't swim. {phan au} highest ranking - #10 in danandphil

the air smells like the promise of tomorrow and nothing has ever smelled more terrifying

Dan Howell is a timid boy, who always does as he is told. He was once friends with Phil Lester, the 'bad influence' who soon ditches Dan for the popular group in Year 7. After five years of not talking to each other, they're partnered in a project and Phil's wants to win Dan over just like he has with most of their year. But yet, Dan is determined to find out what Phil is hiding behind his arrogant mask.

Phil Lester is sweet and cute; known for his kindness and enthusiasm. Dan Howell is a tough, cold outsider; known as the school's stereotypical 'bad boy'. But if he's so bad, then why on earth did he rescue Phil Lester and give him a smile which would melt anyone's heart?