❝Remember that first time we hugged at the train station? I remember seeing your face light up and I hugged you for so long, I didn't want to let go because for once, I felt complete. But that was before you left.❞

Dan is happier than he could ever be, with his best friend Phil. Everything was in place, perfect, life was exciting again. Except everything seems different from Phil's side. Dan calls him names. Dan laughs behind his back. Dan humiliates him in front of everyone, and thus Phil just doesn't know how long he can take it. And then someone else comes onto the scene, things will completely turn on its head. Dan and Phil's happiness was meant to be short lived. ((this story is a sequel, but can be read without you having to read the first book! - "wake up, phil"))

Part 1 of the infamous series. Feelings appear. Sparks fly. Love rises. Problems occur. Please note: This story is now very old (7 years old in 2020) and I'd like to think my writing has improved since then! There are a bunch of cringey parts and bad writing in here, but enjoy and thanks for reading! :)

in which two boys meet by being added to a kik group chat.

[complete] what happens at camp, stays at camp ; copyright © 2016

Dan Howell: A boy who loves to wear anything pastel colored. He always just kinda assumed he was straight, until he met Phil Lester. Phil Lester: A boy who wears all black and loves to wear band T-Shirts as well, as long as they aren't too colorful. He never knew you could feel such strong feelings towards a person, until he meets Dan Howell.

Dan is different. He's learned to accept that. Well, as best he can anyway, considering he's never really had much of a choice. It's been this way for as long as he can remember, the constant runaround process of trying to feel normal. His life is built around it, trying to trick both himself and everyone he interacts with into seeing him as your average person. The isolation as he desperately tries to keep others from finding out, the bitterness that wells up inside of him each and every time he's reminded that he'll never be like everyone else, the fear that nothing will ever change. He's fated to be this way forever; a misfit from society. Isolation can only go so far though, so when he's struggling to make ends meet and he's faced with the option of looking into a serious job or taking on a roommate, he opts for what seems like the easier option at the time. It doesn't seem so easy ten failed roommates into the process, or when he sits down at a table to meet with prospect number eleven and ends up with a coffee spilled all over his lap. Potential roommate number eleven, Phil, turns out to be an insufferable optimistic ball of sunshine that Dan wants nothing to do with. His options are running out though, as are the savings he's been using to pay his rent, so he finds himself begrudgingly agreeing to let the other man move in. Neither of them have any way of knowing just what they've gotten themselves into as they shake on the matter, but time will tell.

When Dan Howell goes to end his life one fateful night, he doesn't expect to meet a stranger that proposes a deal. If Dan give him thirty days, Phil will give him thirty reasons to live. If at the end of the thirty days and Dan still feels the same, then Phil will leave him alone. Warnings: mentions of suicide, smoking, overdose, alcohol, cursing, smut, depression, anxiety