"Phil... I'm depressed" "Oh my god, me too! I get so down in the dumps sometimes it's ju-" "No. Phil. I have depression" "Oh." ~ triggers: -self harm (cutting) -depression + depressing thoughts -suicidal thoughts + suicide -gay slurs + other derogatory words -abuse -alcohol addiction -rape -murder ~ #144 in Fanfiction ~ completed - 25/9/16

Dan Howell was the typical spoiled, rich boy with butlers driving him to operas and maids making him nachos for breakfast. Phil Lester, however, was the opposite. Barely any money and deadbeat parents, he lives in a bad neighborhood in a gross apartment with cat hair covering the carpet and an odd roommate. And then Dan's parents decide he needs to love someone rather than himself, and when Phil shows up at his mansion steps, Dan's parents grow fond of him- so much that the two are exchanging rings and Phil is moving in with his new spouse. They tell Dan he should give it a few months, to be patient, and if he still doesn't like him then they'll sign the divorce papers and call it quits. Marriage isn't perfect, right? Well this one is the exact example. But they could always pretend.

the air smells like the promise of tomorrow and nothing has ever smelled more terrifying

Summary: Dan draws, Phil doesn't. Phil wears black shirts, speaks loudly, and glares at everyone. Dan wears grey jumpers, doesn't talk, and tries to stay invisible. Phil's reckless, Dan's not. This is as story about two polar opposites who mange to have a string of first times together, and maybe even a cute love story. Because unexpected things always happen, when you try to keep someone at arms length. Rating/Warnings: Mature Readers (READ AT OWN RISK). This story may contain topics of depression, cutting, anxiety, panic attacks, assault, gay slurs, and minor sexual content. If any of the listed content triggers you, please do not read. Please do not copy and post my story anywhere else or create an "adaptation" of my work. Thank you. Copyright © 2013. strawb3rryvib3s All Rights Reserved.

Once Phil reveals his secret affection for Dan, they become boyfriends. Though, Dan is crushed when Phil walks out of his life after the "incident". Will the boys make an effort to patch things up? Or will they depart forever? **This is a safe Phanfic, there will be no mentions of suicide, self harm, rape, etc.**

Highschool au Dan's POV COMPLETE - Phil is the new boy at Dan's school. He's so mysterious and captivating, and no matter how hard Dan tries to ignore him, Phil keeps popping up everywhere. And Dan can't help but feel like everything Phil does and is is worth a song, a story, a painting. Anything. But Dan is no good at those sorts of things.

[completed] philgon: she can fuck you good, but i can fuck you better ; copyright © 2016

Dan always seems normal. He is kind to his friends and loves all things nerdy, which is why kids find him an easy target. But what most people don't know, is that he is trapped in a deep state of depression that he can't get out of, thanks to the death of his father, his alcoholic step-father, the bullies at school, and the fact that everyone knows his deepest darkest secret about his sexuality, he is bi-sexual. But things suddenly change when the curious, over-enthusiastic and light-hearted new kid, Phil Lester makes his way into Dan's life, and slowly into Dan's heart and he teaches that everyone deserves a chance to be happy, and everyone has a reason to live, even if he and Phil's lives aren't perfect. *Warning!! This books contains violence and offensive language! Depression triggered*

[COMPLETED] "phil, i have cancer"

Okay so, kinda confusing, just bare with me here. Phil, Chris, and PJ are all vampires. Phil is Punk!Phil Dan is Pastel!Dan Phil finds Dan on the streets, and all that jazz. Read on to find out what happens blah blah blah. I wrote this BC I cant find a decent phanfic to read, I've read them all K gotta go write some smut not tragedies.