This poem is about a girl who is not others, She can not be compared to others in her family, she is not the A+ student, she is different from others. Unique in her own way, she is the Angel with black wings, and only God understands her

Good Girl (With Bad Tendency's) by; Carmen M. Ortiz She's your roaring fire, you're hearts desire She's your blanket on a cold winter's night She makes you feel alive, like the stars in the night Her lips as sweet as honey to the taste She's a Pisces so you'll never know what you get With every breath, you're heart will beat out of your chest As she places her arms around your neck Good Girl (With Bad Tendency's) Whipped cream dreams Her nails ripping down your back as she makes you scream Now she has you in her league Tonight she's giving you Ecstasy , making you feel complete Her name on your lips for eternity She'll stay for as long as you need For tonight she's your Good Girl ( With Bad Tendency's)

Sad Innocence VS Heartless Charm " 07/24/11 By: Carmen M. Ortiz As I get older, My heart is getting colder. This sweet little girl is gone. No one knows who I have become. Like having a twin within. When one is gone , the other jumps in and grins with her charm. But the subconscious wants to do harm. It wants to get revenge against those where Justice did not come. The one pleads "God please help me with this hurt". While the other says " Lets take care of this ourselves". Who will be blamed for this scorn. The mental scars I have had for so long. For I to take all the blame would be wrong. This is just me and my sadness charm Listening to what is right, While the other side just wants to fight. I've become this person "My worst enemy". I've become that little girl within the woman who is angry Thinking "This sadness charm, " God help me I have passed it on. When did it all go wrong. Who will be blamed for this scorn. The mental scars I have had for so long. For I to take all the blame would be wrong. This is just me and my sadness charm.  By Carmen M. Ortiz

This poem is dedicated to my friend Octavio (A.K.A Octane) Thank you for being a big brother to me and for protecting me when I needed it most. I am eternally grateful Close your eyes, remember tomorrow is a new beginning Don't let it sink it Don't cry Pretend it didn't happen, By smiling and laughing Bury it while it's still alive Forget it shut it out You're only 13 still So much of the world to see You need to run away, you need to escape You're only 13 What do they expect They ignore those bruises on your chest They claim you're a bad kid like the rest Send her home that will be best They didn't care about that ring being hit across your face Bolt for the door To late you are on the floor begging for it to stop Shh... don't speak They will know you are weak The slam against the table now you can't breath Neighbors don't care You're only 13 These nightmares are about to come real Feel like you're running out of time Hurry up and run, Hurry up and hide Before you end up with no life You're only 13 When it feels like everyone is out to get you He protects you, He makes fun of you with a song "Runaway" on repeat all night long You're only 13 And the night is young, Hiding out until the sun comes up Holding out for another day. You're destiny is about to change You're heading to a place where you can smile again

Poem Nov 20, 2015, 8:28 PM "Been Everyone's Girl,but Daddy's" (By Carmen Maria Ortiz) Been everyone's girl. but daddy's It's got me screwed up My soul comes to a halt, I feel the fault God help me take this pain I created My heart breaks, mourning a man I can't hate banging on the window pane"Daddy don't go away" A monster has sealed my fate Don't ask questions that I can't relate I've been everyone's girl, but Daddy's Don't feel sad for me, It was my destiny Smothered by shadows, the pain unbearable Screaming in parables If I hate you would it bring you back? So you can be the Dad I never had They tell me " it's not just reality' It's a fact Dad is never coming back" I'm screaming" I'm sorry", It's my fault" I became sick, isn't that a bitch I had a family and it was gone in a switch My world became a mess Things happen to me that I can't confess I take a deep breath, I wish for death I feel my heart pounding out of my chest Tears run down my face, my back is up against the wall No one to catch me when I fall Been Everyone's girl, but Daddy's Not enough pills to kill the pain Not enough alcohol in my veins A moments of weakness My heart on the mend. I venting to a friend The embarrassment I feel in the end Do you see me Daddy? Do you care? Did it break your heart to see the scars I bare? So forever I will walk this earth sadly Being everyone else's girl, but Daddy's