Dan always seems normal. He is kind to his friends and loves all things nerdy, which is why kids find him an easy target. But what most people don't know, is that he is trapped in a deep state of depression that he can't get out of, thanks to the death of his father, his alcoholic step-father, the bullies at school, and the fact that everyone knows his deepest darkest secret about his sexuality, he is bi-sexual. But things suddenly change when the curious, over-enthusiastic and light-hearted new kid, Phil Lester makes his way into Dan's life, and slowly into Dan's heart and he teaches that everyone deserves a chance to be happy, and everyone has a reason to live, even if he and Phil's lives aren't perfect. *Warning!! This books contains violence and offensive language! Depression triggered*

First book in the I Have Always Noticed You series Dan tries to keep to the shadows and away from everyone else. But Phil sees him and doesn't want him to be alone. What will happen when their two worlds collide, will it be beautiful? Or will it crash and burn? -Trigger warning-