ALL CREDITS GO TO "fullcollapse" on livejournal for this absolutely beautiful story. Mostly AU, high school age setting. With the help of his friends, Ryan has just learned how to like life. Brendon hasn't yet found such luck. This is a story about strong relationships, trust, not wanting to be alone, and holding hands. There's a river, and just like its never-ending path to the ocean, some things just go on forever. Sometimes you need someone more than you need yourself, and sometimes, that's okay. Rating: R. Word count: 200,000+

Fifteen year old Zayn Malik couldn't help himself for his own good. He was born a paranoid schizophrenic. It's not his fault what if he did something 'bad' he couldn't help it. His mind is being controlled by the hallucinations and illusions. They praise him for the 'bad' he does, and encourage him to continue on. So when a new hallucination in the form of a person- a very attractive boy takes over for all other other being both Zayn's good and bad. ~This is an underage story not by that much Zayn's fifteen and Louis is twenty-one~