Aleksandr is stuck. Stuck lusting over his best friend. Stuck with a girlfriend he no longer has feelings for. Stuck in an overwhelming sensation of numbness. Only James can make him feel, only James can make him smile. It's always only ever been James. Sexual content, boy x boy, swearing, drinking. Eventual mention of paranoia, anxiety and depression.

He always found a way to me when it rained.

pawn \ˈpȯn, ˈpän\ noun: A person used by others for their own purposes.