Ryan's life seemed like a routine. It was the same thing everyday. Until the new kid shows up, that is. That's when everything changes

"I'm a mess now." ( warning- four letter chapters.enjoy. _baking-soda_)

The sex industry was a dangerous place, everyone knew that. Sure, it had its perks, but for glamour model Ryan Ross, the only perk was being asked to partake in a photoshoot with gorgeous pornstar Brendon Urie, a man he both hated and admired. That single photoshoot might just have been the detonation that started everything: the lies, the affairs, the heartbreak, the scheming - in order to stay sane, you had to keep your hands to yourself. And for someone like Brendon, it would be the hardest thing he'd ever had to do. Because when you fall, you bring everyone else down with you. "How can you be okay with yourself knowing that you caused all...this?" "I'm never okay with myself, Ryan. Ever." ---------------------------------------------------------------------------

A soulmate au where the only color you can see is the color of your soulmate's eyes until you meet them. [ warnings: cursing, character death, rushed ending, high angst ]

when ryan dies, brendon texts him everyday.

Sometimes it's okay to skip out on a dare. Ryan learns that the hard way.

"I wish I could see space in everyone's eyes." Ryan loves space. Ryan loves the sun, moon, galaxy and everything that has to do with night. He's different, maybe that's why Brendon likes him because he sees the world through different eyes.

From Preschool on, Brendon and Ryan grew up together. They laughed together, they cried together. And together, they felt feelings they'd never felt before.