"If you knew who I was, what I been through, you would realize how worthless I really am. You wouldn't like me anymore." "I don't think I could stop liking you if I tried"

Two people. Different fears. Different lives. One lived through a life where everything felt like it was crumbling at the seams and felt like a constant sense of paranoia and anxiousness surrounding her. The other lived a good life. Surrounded by good friends that motivate him to be the best. He created many fans that love him and would have a crush on the man in front of the camera just by playing video games. They both had twists and on their road, both chasing after them. Someone wanting love but in the wrong ways. After she struggles with her life with an abusive boyfriend, the boy picks her up and saves her from the darkness she lives in. With her shield up, protecting her from the pain that love has caused her, he falls for her. He hids it from her until life gets too complicated. But lives get damaged, feelings get revealed and the perfect life gets destroyed from the choices he made. "I wanted to die. I wanted to feel the air dry my tears as my balance on the ledge became lost in the speed of everything rush past me in a colorful blur. I wanted the darkness to consume me like you found me the day we met." warning : does mention suicide, abuse, drinking, and talk of sexual content. read with caution.