"you certainly do make me feel pretty." (TRIGGER WARNING - eating disorder, self-harm.)

He asked me if I wanted to become an actress but I didn't think he meant in porn movies completed

God, is this really over? Is this really the end? I have lived a life that I am grateful for. I could not ask for more. It was saturated of suprisings, love. Laughter but tears, happiness but sadness. I realized it late but my life was more than perfect. I realize this now that I can feel the end appoarches. Is this really going to be the end of me? I was dreaming about this moment. oh God! I was really waiting the moment when death would knock my door and inticate his hand for me to reach it and join him. But now I am regreting those thoughts as my whole life is flashing before my eyes. I cannot help myself but wonder again. Is this the end? ____ Warning: It contains a lot of self-harm and depression. And unedited so forgive my grammar and vocab mistakes. Started: June 2016 Finished:-- Credits for the cover: @wourdsinus