Castiel Novak hates life. His father treats him like shit, he has no friends, people like to bully him, he's a punk, and of course, the guy he has a crush on is the complete opposite of him. Dean Winchester, jock, hottie, and the star of Castiel's wet dreams. Castiel doesn't want to live, but when Dean becomes his lab partner, he thinks his life might turn around. Warning: This is a sad/feels fic. It has sadness and triggers. It also contains sexuality, drugs, alcohol, violence, and self harm. I've never done a sad fic, so I'll try my best to write it well..