Dan Howell and Phil Lester have said over and over that "Phan" is not real, and they have never been in a relationship together. They swear it; not even once. But behind the YouTube videos, BBC 1 radio shows and YouNows, what do Dan and Phil do in their private time? Are the fan-theories closer to the truth than Dan and Phil would like to even admit? With so much information about their lives available on the Internet, can they be allowed to keep one little secret? WARNING: CONTAINS STRONG LANGUAGE, SEXUAL SITUATIONS, THEMES OF SUICIDE & SELF HARM. IT MAY NOT BE SUITABLE FOR YOUNGER READERS. Note: Not all images used in this story are made by me, and credit goes to those who made them.

❝Remember that first time we hugged at the train station? I remember seeing your face light up and I hugged you for so long, I didn't want to let go because for once, I felt complete. But that was before you left.❞

[COMPLETED] a phan au where dan and phil didn't meet before 2015, and the only thing that matters is their choices. phil is great at messing up, and dan is great at forgiving. but, will that be enough till the very last end? - [WARNING; THIS WAS MY FIRST PHAN-AU/ACTUAL FANFICTION I EVER WROTE, SO IT IS CRINGY AND BAD, JUST REMEMBER THAT!!!]

*'BEST PHANFICTION' WINNER (FANFICTION AWARDS 2018)* Daniel has anxiety and crumples paper to calm himself down. Phil has ADHD and diminishes hearts to bring himself up.

Part 2 of the infamous series. You asked for it, so you got it - this is the sequel to You're The Straw To My Berry! If you haven't read YTSTMB, it would make sense to read that first but it's not 100% necessary.

broken; 1. having been fractured or damaged and no longer in one piece or in working order 2. (of a person) having given up all hope; despairing Broken. That's the only word Phil Lester can describe himself. He's fractured, damaged, and has given up all hope on himself. It's not his fault he is so hurt, so alone, and so far gone. All he wants is to make friends, feel loved, live a normal life, and too be happy. Unfortunately no matter where he goes or who he encounters, there is always someone there breaking him down and pushing him further down a dark hole he can't seem to escape from. He is at his breaking point and doesn't know how much longer he can hold on for. Will anyone ever notice the pain he suffers and finally decide to help him or will he always be on his own? When someone does notice, will it be too late to save him from the demons that have already imprinted a huge heart aching mark on his fragile and broken mind? ✖️Warning✖️ This story includes self harming, thoughts of suicide, suicide sttempt, mature language, boyxboy, bullying, abuse, and other things that might not be suitable for a younger audience!

" my name's blurry face and I care what you think. " Dan Howell has an unknown condition where he cannot see faces - no matter what he wears or does - they are always a blur. The doctors nicknamed it 'blurry face', and there's absolutely nothing they can do about it; Dan will have to live without faces. That is, until he meets Phil Lester - the 'bad boy' of Dan's new school - who's face is strangely visible to Dan; much to Dan's wonder and Phil's distaste.

[completed] philly: who's this? danhowell: your future husband ; copyright © 2016 //highest ranking: #4

Phil was angry at everything. He was angry at the drunk diver who killed his mum, he was angry at his dad for moving Phil and his brother to Florida, he was angry at the brokenness of his family. After his mum had died, Phil had cut himself off from everyone, vowing that he would never fall in love to let anyone in again, for fear of being hurt. He had walls up that he would never let down. That is, until he met Dan. The boy that would break down every wall, the one that would show him that he could let people in. The one who showed Phil that love is worth the risk. ~The cover was made by the AMAZING @tissuesforissues ~ Mentions of suicide, car accidents, and alcohol

Part 1 of the infamous series. Feelings appear. Sparks fly. Love rises. Problems occur. Please note: This story is now very old (7 years old in 2020) and I'd like to think my writing has improved since then! There are a bunch of cringey parts and bad writing in here, but enjoy and thanks for reading! :)