My very first fan fiction so I know this won't be the best when it comes to the writing, so I apologize if it doesn't suit you.

{{ part two of psychedelia }} It's been two years since Dan moved out of the apartment to go to a rehabilitation centre, and in that space of time he's heard nothing from Phil. Not even a "hello." Dan's scared that Phil's moved on and forgotten about him, and since they both stopped vlogging Dan doesn't know what's happening in Phil's life. Is he still living in London? Has he moved back to Manchester? Is he even alive? So now that Dan is finally off his medication and he's completely clean, he should be happy again, right? Sometimes, the most painful thing is when the person who you share all of your best memories with becomes a slowly fading memory, and you can't do anything except watch and scream as the past disappears, almost like it never existed in the first place. And it fucking hurts. WARNING: THIS STORY CONTAINS STRONG LANGUAGE, SEXUAL SITUATIONS, MENTIONS OF DRUGS, VIOLENCE, HIGH LEVELS OF ANGST, BULIMIA, AND THEMES OF SUICIDE. IT IS NOT SUITABLE FOR YOUNGER READERS.

romance doesn't always begin at first glance, but when the world is paused, it's hard to ignore a second heartbeat. © ; 2016 Highest Ranking: #9 in Fanfiction (aahhh thank you so much) #1 in phillester #1 in superpowers #2 in amazingphil #2 in danisnotonfire #3 in danhowell | WORKING ON FINAL CHAPTER |

you're the dreamer and we are the dream (x) six years of quiet hopes, silent wishes, gold memories and silver dreams that all began on one rainy night in the silence of dan howell's room. how was he supposed to know that by clicking on the thumbnail of a video would turn his world upside down and change everything? this is the story of two boys with opposite fringes and parallel dreams, whose paths cross in a way dan had never expected, based on the story of dan and phil. tw // self harm, bullying, suicidal thoughts

Dan Howell and Phil Lester have said over and over that "Phan" is not real, and they have never been in a relationship together. They swear it; not even once. But behind the YouTube videos, BBC 1 radio shows and YouNows, what do Dan and Phil do in their private time? Are the fan-theories closer to the truth than Dan and Phil would like to even admit? With so much information about their lives available on the Internet, can they be allowed to keep one little secret? WARNING: CONTAINS STRONG LANGUAGE, SEXUAL SITUATIONS, THEMES OF SUICIDE & SELF HARM. IT MAY NOT BE SUITABLE FOR YOUNGER READERS. Note: Not all images used in this story are made by me, and credit goes to those who made them.

Dan has given up on ever being happy. Life has lost its meaning, and everything he seems to do causes some form of destruction, and Dan is so tired of destroying the things he used to love. He's lost so much, and he's scared of losing Phil, the only thing he can bring himself to care about. But Dan can't see past his own depression that Phil is struggling with bulimia, and that he's equally good at hiding his dark thoughts as Dan. And as Dan walks through the streets alone at night getting high to escape from the hell he's trapped himself in, will he be able to see that maybe the happiness he craves so desperately is not on the streets in the form of white pills, but inside his own apartment in the form of Phil Lester? Or will it be too late... WARNING: THIS STORY CONTAINS STRONG LANGUAGE, SEXUAL SITUATIONS, USE OF DRUGS, VIOLENCE, HIGH LEVELS OF ANGST, BULIMIA, AND THEMES OF SUICIDE. IT IS NOT SUITABLE FOR YOUNGER READERS.

i'm sitting pretty on the throne there's nothing more i want except to be alone. + or where dan is a optimistic openly gay high school student and phil is doing everything to deny himself one simple thing. trigger warnings for • coarse language • alcohol and drug references • physical and verbal abuse • sexual scenes and references • anxiety references

as fluffy as your favourite feather-filled pillow :)