headspace ; phan

dan howell liked space, and in phil's eyes he saw galaxies. phil lester liked nature, maybe dan could paint him flowers. [spaceboy!dan x plantboy!phil]

Deep // Phan AU

"I'm sorry..." (trigger warning)

love me // phan

he looks me in the eye. C O M P L E T E

ill // phan au

"you kind of remind me of stars; you only shine at night when no one is watching." (lower case intended // trigger warning)

Happy Little Phil, Take Dan Away // Phan

It all started with that kiss, that moment and that passion when Dan became lost and Phil was clueless but both in love. The story of a skinny love that slowly becomes into something more and at the same time something less. *Note* Depression, suicide, self-harm and things like this will be mentioned a few times in...

ONLY FOOLS ❥ PHAN

Young love is a lot more than just chemicals inside your head, it's a lot more than just having a petty crush on a hot guy that sits in front of you, young love is the start of emotions; the beginning of learning how to love. Might be a lil cringe as I never intended for this to become my first full on phanfiction, re...

Mad Hatter // Phan AU

"Are you insane or are you just that broken?" he whispered, his face inches from mine. "I'm a little bit of both," I admitted, looking into his eyes. "A trip into my mind would be a trip into a nightmare."

After I Left // Phan

{Sequel to Before You Leave} ❝After I left, there was so many things that hit me and that I realized. One of those things was that I missed you.❞

dear insecurities [phan-completed]

"we spend all this time waiting for tomorrow, yet it never arrives." the story of a boy who writes to his insecurities. the story of another who saves him. {phan} {lowercase intentional} {trigger warning: depression, implied self-harm/mentions of suicide}

sad face // phan

complete phil: you okay dan? dan: ;( will go through severe editing and plot changing in late january--early febuary

pretend (phan)

Dan Howell was the typical spoiled, rich boy with butlers driving him to operas and maids making him nachos for breakfast. Phil Lester, however, was the opposite. Barely any money and deadbeat parents, he lives in a bad neighborhood in a gross apartment with cat hair covering the carpet and an odd roommate. And then...

Before You Leave // Phan

❝Remember that first time we hugged at the train station? I remember seeing your face light up and I hugged you for so long, I didn't want to let go because for once, I felt complete. But that was before you left.❞

colors

There's only two things that Dan likes: 1) colors and 2) flowers And also 3) Phil Lester (Technically three things)

THUNDER // phan

he repeats the process; C O M P L E T E tw ; self-harm, suicide, depression, major character death you can not read this story AT ALL if you get triggered by those topics

Take the monsters away | Phan (Completed)

Dan howell is starting at a new school, he is abused and raped by his own father, Phil lester is the so called emo fag, people call him that because someone told everyone he's gay, so he gets brutally beaten everyday but pretends as if nothing happens, what happens when they met? Started: August 30th Ended: January...

public fear ☹ phan

"Do you know those cartoons where people have a little devil and a little angel on their shoulder?" "Yeah?" "That's exactly what I have." ~ trigger warning(s): mentions of; pills, panic attacks, good/bad personas <3

Teacher - Phan

Dan Howell is constantly bullied. And he knows better than to tell someone because what he would get in return wouldn't solve anything. All he needed was a friend. But what if that friend turns out to be a teacher? And what if the feelings for that teacher get more passionate than planned? xx

stay ✧ phan (incomplete)

"I can't even think straight. For your own sake, just let me walk away." "But.. I need you. Please, please, stay." The third and final instalment in the 'ASL?' series. I highly recommend you read 'ASL?' and 'Dear Diary' before reading this.

twisted (phan) || book #2

SECOND BOOK IN THE 'STAINED' SERIES After running away together, Dan and Phil live their life in London, keeping their past locked up. Either way, nothing has changed. In fact, things have gotten worse for the two boys. After Dan pulled the trigger on the gun, he hasn't been the same since. Dan and Phil are now the m...

Transgender || phan (book 1)

A boy across from me is staring. Maybe it's because I'm looking through female hairstyles instead of men's. I glare at him. Homophobic trash... The boy who use to sit across from me is still there. As I pass him, his name gets called as well. Dan.

emotions (phan)

"The less you care, the happier you are." He turned to face me, his blue eyes dull with traces of betrayal. "No. The less you care, the lonelier you are." - In a world where people have the ability to flip an emotions switch, many people lack feelings and sympathy in general- including Dan Howell after a tragedy str...

Relapse (Phan)

SEQUEL TO ALIVE Phil's life is in shambles. A third year university student, he lives a less-than-extraordinary life: ignoring calls from his ex-best-friend, working in a local shop, and sleeping around to forget the one thing always on his mind: Dan Howell. TW: language, sexual content, drug mentions ENTIRELY WRITTE...

cliché (phan)

Dan Howell and Phil Lester share a passion for soccer. When they make it onto their school's team, they are determined to impress the coaches and their teammates. The two boys are too caught up in competition to realize that they are more alike than it seems, instead drinking while underage and bringing home bad repo...

Promise? • phan

{COMPLETED} Phil was mute, alone and bullied. Dan was outgoing, popular, and a bully. But when he starts developing feelings for Phil, what happens? -once again not good at summaries but give it a try-

Purpose || phan (book 2)

"Hello?" I pant. "Is this Phil Lester?" Someone's on the other end. I gulp. "Yes." "We have news on..." I hear papers ruffle in the background. "Uh...Dan Howell?"

Misfit (Phan AU)

Dan is different. He's learned to accept that. Well, as best he can anyway, considering he's never really had much of a choice. It's been this way for as long as he can remember, the constant runaround process of trying to feel normal. His life is built around it, trying to trick both himself and everyone he interacts...

blurry face - phan

" my name's blurry face and I care what you think. " Dan Howell has an unknown condition where he cannot see faces - no matter what he wears or does - they are always a blur. The doctors nicknamed it 'blurry face', and there's absolutely nothing they can do about it; Dan will have to live without faces. That is, unti...

wanted (phan) || book #3

THIRD BOOK IN THE 'STAINED' SERIES Dan and Phil are desperate to survive- so desperate that the two decide to become more than just a duo, and bring in whoever they can find to help them get out of this alive. The group is targeted, framed, and attacked by many who want their revenge. They can't sleep, eat, or even b...

Speak up already - Phan

Phil doesn't talks. Well, not anymore. The last time he said something, was when he didn't hate himself. And that was a long time ago. But now, everything is different. He must struggle with depression, whilst new boy Dan Howell desperately attempts to win him over. [Warning: this could be triggering at some points]