Phil doesn't have a best friend in his life. That is, until Dan turns up at his school. They become close and Phil finds out that Dan has a twin brother, but hates to talk about him. It's not until Phil comes over to Dan's house that he finds out why.

Phil doesn't talks. Well, not anymore. The last time he said something, was when he didn't hate himself. And that was a long time ago. But now, everything is different. He must struggle with depression, whilst new boy Dan Howell desperately attempts to win him over. [Warning: this could be triggering at some points]

Phil: a loser, continuously beaten and picked on by the other guys at school. Dan: popular, arrogant, and confused. What happens when the two collide? Just like me is a story of trust, love and secrets (Ok I'm making this sound like a bad tv drama, just read the fic please, I broke my thumbs writing it. *WARNING* self harm, suicidal thoughts, explicit language, slight anorexia. It's an angst fic so y'know, the average...also smut, so look forward that kids hey hey ;)

I'm so sorry phil,I hope you forgive me *TRIGGER WARNING - SELF HARM AND DEPRESSION THROUGHOUT*

Part 1 of the infamous series. Feelings appear. Sparks fly. Love rises. Problems occur. Please note: This story is now very old (7 years old in 2020) and I'd like to think my writing has improved since then! There are a bunch of cringey parts and bad writing in here, but enjoy and thanks for reading! :)

Dear Phil, I miss you (WARNINGS: mentions of self harm and suicide)

Phil doesn't suit dark clothes and they just don't feel like.. him. Dan is secluded.. he blocks himself off from society. Two boys with problems they need to overcome. This is their journey through discovery. PREQUEL TO FLOWER CROWNS AND STARS. ALTHOUGH YOU CAN READ THIS ON ITS OWN, I WOULD RECOMMEND YOU ALSO READ FLOWER CROWNS AND STARS. THANK YOU. TW: Depression, bullying and self consciousness. ALSO SORRY THE COVER SUCKS

SEQUEL TO ALIVE Phil's life is in shambles. A third year university student, he lives a less-than-extraordinary life: ignoring calls from his ex-best-friend, working in a local shop, and sleeping around to forget the one thing always on his mind: Dan Howell. TW: language, sexual content, drug mentions ENTIRELY WRITTEN FROM PHIL'S POV

[completed] I miss you -Phil xx