My Grandpa had lung cancer and it spread to multiple places in his body. I was enraged when I heard that there was nothing they could do. They being the doctors. Now that he has passed away, due to cancer and fate, I will write notes to him here. You don't have to read them, I just want him to be able to read them. Even if he physically can't, I think he will in heaven. Again, you don't have to read them. But you may learn more about me through them. So, maybe it's not a bad idea. I don't know. It's up to you. I'll put a picture of me or something else at the header for him to look at and the note will be directed towards him. Not my readers. Sorry. But these are for him. You can read them though. Enjoy. **Trigger Warning: Death & Suicide.**