"'I miss you.' 'What do you mean? I'm right here.' He shook his head. 'No, I mean I miss seeing you. I miss your smile. Seeing you smile made me so happy. I'm still so upset that I'll never see it again.' I breathed in, a bit shaky. 'You've just got to remember that if I'm with you, I'm always smiling, okay?' 'I s...
phan // in which two boys who are definitely toxic for each other decide to not care
Summary: Dan draws, Phil doesn't. Phil wears black shirts, speaks loudly, and glares at everyone. Dan wears grey jumpers, doesn't talk, and tries to stay invisible. Phil's reckless, Dan's not. This is as story about two polar opposites who mange to have a string of first times together, and maybe even a cute love...
Dan is a dancer, but it's his best kept secret. Moving to a new college results in new friends, new hobbies and a new outlook in life; but what does it really mean to be human? A series of strange and seemingly unconnected events unfold that all seem to link back to Dan's mysterious new boyfriend. etcetc phan with ki...
Dan has given up on ever being happy. Life has lost its meaning, and everything he seems to do causes some form of destruction, and Dan is so tired of destroying the things he used to love. He's lost so much, and he's scared of losing Phil, the only thing he can bring himself to care about. But Dan can't see past his...
COMPLETE : Phil moves to England, to study at a school after a massive argument with his family.- trigger warnings; cutting, sucide references and attempts.
{P h a n : C o m p l e t e d} "Help Me" trigger warning : suicide, self-harm
"we spend all this time waiting for tomorrow, yet it never arrives." the story of a boy who writes to his insecurities. the story of another who saves him. {phan} {lowercase intentional} {trigger warning: depression, implied self-harm/mentions of suicide}
|| Philophobia. Its name comes from two Greek roots, "philo" meaning love and "phobia" meaning fear of. The fear of love. || "I think i was 9 or 10. And i would watch from the stairs and-and the concept of getting close to anyone...it petrifies me." "Why?" "Because I never want to be vulnerable." His voice became c...
in a world where your moods are visible above your head, displayed through pictures and icons, it's impossible to hide your true feelings. however dan howell seems to be lacking this. labelled as an emotionless freak, dan is outcasted because his moods are never visible. that is, until an endlessly happy boy named phi...
" we're friends right? well, you can't really tell me otherwise anyway, which is probably why we're friends. " Or the story of an overenthusiastic boy called Phil, who has trouble shutting up, and a reluctantly mute boy called Dan, who's life is falling apart, and how they both come to realise that sometimes - actions...
(Trigger warning; mentions of mental illness etc.) Dan and Phil have been best friends for many years at one time they may have been a more than that, but all good things must come too an end. When they realize they need each other a little more than they thought. What happens when Phil can't take it anymore? • Dan...
You're Driving Me Mental sequel. Phil is slowly going insane. Well, more 'insane' then he previously thought he was. Dan is definitely more 'insane' then before, making Phil, the supporting boyfriend, want to look after him. One day Phil snaps and walks out on Dan, moving in with his parents for a while. Feeling guil...
'don't do that. don't act like you care. i might do something stupid, like open up to you.' {or the one where phil has a photographic memory and dan is telekinetic} STARTED - 11/12/16 COMPLETED - 16/02/17
('LETHAL' SERIES PART II) Phil's life has been thrown off balance, now trapped in a foreign world with no known way of escaping, it seems his life is leading from one extreme to another. There's no friends, no Dan and his morale is at an all time low. His surroundings and everyone he thought he knew and loved are bein...
('LETHAL' SERIES PART I) Of course, having the ability to change and move objects using nothing more than brain power has its perks, but being sent to a special school isolated from all other humans is definitely not one of them in Phil Lester's mind. In the eyes of Dan Howell, being feared is far better than being l...
Dan and Phil get in a fight, causing Phil to leave. Will he want to take Dan back? Is their marriage in jeopardy?
Young Dan Howell, who lives with his alcoholic father, lost his mother to cancer less than a year ago, and is killing himself. Phil Lester, a boy picked on for his weight, lives alone from the rest of the world in a rehab center while trying to recover from severe anorexia. When a concerned teacher suggests Dan seek h...
Phil is the new patient at an adolescent mental health unit. A young Dan is told to keep an eye on him but apparently, not caring causing things to go down hill. Will Phil get better, for Dan, as well as himself? ~ COMPLETE ~ BOOK ONE ~
"Why are you always so sad and gloomy?" "What's so wrong with being sad?" "Everything."
"well, what can i say sweater boy, you and i mix as well as those damn paints on my brushes and the colors in those sunsets you love so much."
