This book is private because of copyright infringement issues "Life is a dramatic soap opera that never seems to end. We either forget or forgive. But what happens when your stuck between the thin thine of obsession and insanity. And that's my story, despite all his flaws and imperfections, at the end my heart proved to be a sick masochist which still beats for him and him only..." ********** Who is she? A product of misconceptions and maddening insecurities. Born in a world without love... Those who admired all flew away leaving behind the unworthy... Who is he? A blend of heartbreaking mistakes and insane cruelties... Brought up by barbaric monsters... The demons - inner and outer stained pitifully his avowed voices... --------------- "Why can't you love me? Is it because I'm too damn rich for you? Too damn perfect for you? Too damn fake for you?" He yelled throwing things around. The sound of glass crashing evident in the air. He threw away his armani suit and his rolex as if disgusted by it. He was all raw now ... and mine. I had pushed him to the edge of insanity and wild. I wanted to bring the worst of him and I did. I broke him...out of his shell. With no hesitation, I brought his lips to mine as our souls met as one."

Big Time was originally the back-story of Mr Big from the TV series Sex and the City. It followed 10 years of Big's life from a carefree thirty-year-old banker to a married man, through his subsequent divorce, before he met Carrie in the first episode of the show. The story – from the man’s perspective – gave depth to a character many viewers of the television series were attracted to yet thought of as self-centered or even narcissistic. The intent in writing this story was for the reader to get to know and understand the man who was reluctant ­– or even unable – to commit to Carrie in the series. As the rights to Mr Big have not been acquired, the story has been subtly and appropriately changed so that it does not impinge on third party legal rights. Big Time is therefore a story about a man in his 30's, making his way up the corporate ladder whilst also making relationship mistakes and often trying to understand the opposite sex (as most men do). Note from the author: "I tried tenaciously to contact Candace Bushnell's agents and HBO to try to publish this as an official Sex and the City product, but I have not been able get a response. Who knows, maybe with enough support, we could convince them together that this story is deserving of publishing with their moniker attached or maybe even worthy of the big screen." Content Warning The story you are about to read is intended for mature readers due to its sexual content and language. It may not be appropriate for all audiences. Please read at your own discretion.