I don't want to live anymore. My life is a joke. I cut, I have anxiety, depression, Paranoid Personality Disorder, and many more mind problems I'd rather not tell you. Trusting never comes easily, and I always battle with my mind. Life had bled out all of it's colors when a spark of neon flashed before my eyes. I didn't know it, I couldn't trust it, but I can't let it go. It's hope. Tyler Joseph and Josh Dun like to act like they care about me, but they don't. They're liars like everyone else in this dying world. But here's the catch: I want to trust them. I just don't know if I can. ***Warning: Will deal with depression, suicidal thoughts, and minor self harm***

Alexandria Payne has shut the whole world out ever since the devastating death of her beloved father whom she cared for deeply. Nobody and nothing matters to Alex anymore. No one...except for Brendon Urie, an eccentric celebrity who can offer her far more than everything a girl could desire. Love finds Alex when she least expects it in the form of Brendon. But can Brendon mend the deep wounds that she's been dealing with since her father passed away long ago? Is love strong enough to fix loss? ------------------------------------------------------ As she sheds her skin onstage I'm seated and sweating to a dance song on the club's P.A. The strip joint veteran sits two away Smirking between dignified sips of his dignified Peach...and lime... Daiquiri. ------------------------------------------------------