"I know that sometimes for people, I feel like too much; But let me kiss away the phantom pain that the scars remind you of, Let me kiss the burns on your hands, From when you touched the burning fire within my soul. Let me show you that yes, I am too much. I am too much, to be let go." Number 73 in the 2017 Literary Awards Completed 12/21/16 My 1st poetry book.

depressing poems, caused by my life

Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option. ***** Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her... Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault. [[word count: 50,000-100,000 words]]

Maybe One Day is now published as a Paperback, and E-book with W by Wattpad Books! ***** Hayley Donovan has been in love with Jace Hammond for years, but as they finally begin to grow close, they're pulled apart by the ghosts of their pasts. ***** Hayley Donovan has been in love with her best friend's brother, Jace, for years, but the feelings have never been reciprocated. That is, until Hayley decides to leave her small town and her family's tragic past behind to attend the University of Georgia - the very same university where Jace is attending. As the two reconnect for the first time in over a year, they can't ignore the growing feelings between them, however, things are never simple when it comes to love. The couple must work through both of their emotional pasts, as well as deal with a classmate, Levi, who is intent on making Hayley's experience at university one that'll have her fearing for her life. Content and/or Triggering Warning: this story contains swearing, mature themes, and sexual content. [[word count: 100,000-150,000 words]]

"You know, I could show you?" Cassadee whispered sliding her long black fingernail down my torso to the tops of my jeans and tugging. She looked up at me through her beautiful long eyelashes and a smirk tugging on her lips. "Uh. I-I.." I stuttered my mouth hung open. My arms glued to my side not knowing what to do in this type of situation. "Come on. Don't you wanna know what it's like to be bad?" ************************** Cassedee Simons, she is what you would call a bad girl, trouble. Does whatever she wants when she wants. Meet Mason Stockman, he is what people call nerdy, goody two shoes, never does anything wrong and always follows the rules. But when Mason is sick of people calling goody goody, Cassadee notices and thinks it would be fun to help him out. Show him what it's like in her world.

It's official. I'm a High School graduate and a soon to be College Student! Finally going to get out of my parents house and off on my own. Well.. They wouldn't let me get my own apartment or live in the dorms until my Sophomore year. They assume it will make me go wild and crazy. Talk about trust.. So we made a compromise. I would move in with my older brother and his roommate. At least until my Sophomore year. Did I mention his roommate is my brother's best friend and that I used to have a major crush on him growing up? They attend the college across from mine. Surely I could survive a year living with my brother and his roommate. Even if his roommate is an Adonis and constantly flirting with me. Follow me as I embark on a journey of finding myself, friendships, heated encounters, secret relationships, and so much more.

When billionaire bad boy Eros meets shy, nerdy Jade, he doesn't recognize her from his past. Will they be able to look past their secrets and fall in love again? ****** When Jade Collins goes to work for billionaire bad boy Eros Petrakis, all she thinks she'll be doing is making his coffee...but when sparks fly, the shy Jade (who wears a disguise to mask her beauty and the secrets of her past) and the fiery, cocky Eros (who is solely focused on business and doesn't believe in the distractions of love) begin to grow closer and closer. Will Eros be able to see past her disguise to the beauty within? And will Jade be able to tame his heart -- and her own -- once the man of her dreams finally notices her? ****** Officially now a series! Watch it for free on MediaCorp's Youtube Channel- MediaCorp Drama. [[Word Count: 150,000 - 200,000]] The Girl He Never Noticed (Book 1 + 2) by Neilani Alejandrino (Sweetdreamer33) Copyright © 2015. All Rights Reserved.

Being cheated on is the worst feeling ever. When I called my best friend Kyrn and told her what happened between me and Brett, she came over straight away. I always told her that I wished I would find a man that would love me and not just want sex all the time like most guys do. It turns out, that I would be getting my wish tonight. Tonight was the night that my best friend and I were kidnapped from my house by sexy Greek god kidnappers. Highest ranking: #1 in Werewolf

[Now Published!] "God, I like him. I like my best friend. Oh, and he has a girlfriend." He's an attractive football player with a penchant for stealing hearts. She's his socially awkward best friend. They share a relationship that is difficult to define. After all, which pair of best friends spend half their time flirting with each other, and the other half getting on each other's nerves? They do. Scarlett is used to his womanizing ways, and seeing him with a new girl every week doesn't really bother her. But then, Aiden lands himself a serious girlfriend, and she's everything that Scarlett isn't. Suddenly bombarded with a bunch of feelings she hasn't encountered before, Scarlett realizes she might just be falling for her best friend. She knows she's in trouble. Aiden knows he's in trouble when he finds himself getting attracted to none other than Scarlett. Now that he finally had a girlfriend to call his own, everything had seemed to be going in the right direction. Well, up until these feelings made an entrance. Something is totally wrong with him and everything he's feeling. He knows he must stop before things get out of hand. But things do get out of hand. Very. And before long these two best friends find themselves in the midst of lots of drama; from stolen kisses, to painful heart-breaks; from unwanted jealousy, to passionate feelings; Add a lot of parties, drunken confessions, misconceptions, arguments, and oh, kissing (lots of it). A Flirtationship will draw you into the intricate tapestry of confessions, betrayals, friendship, and love. Give their story the chance it deserves. You won't regret it!

"You'll do anything will you?" Keeley smirks, a mischievous glint lighting up her brown eyes. "I dare you, Jade Elsie Brooke, to break into Trystan Woods house and steal a pair of his boxers without him finding out." Jade Brooke was the dare devil who had never turned down a dare, no matter how bad it was. So when a simple game of truth of dare ends up flipping her life upside down in the form of a dare, she has no one to blame but herself. Trystan Woods was the boy out of reach for most, who stood at the top of the high school food chain. Everyone loves him, and he was the football team captain. Jade had never interacted with him, until the day she was dared to break into his house and steal his underwear. The only flaw in the plan? When he catches her in his room holding his boxers. || Humour #1 || // this story is in major need of editing and sucks quite badly so read at your own risk you have been warned \\