I let my thoughts wander, anything to get my mind off of her. They glide down a winding river of past emotions, actions, conversations. Then the waters become choppy; rushing and rushing. They are out of control. I can't keep up. The horrible thoughts take over. My muscles stiffen. My hands ache. We are trapped in here. Why did this happen? How did this happen? Then the mother of all dreadful thoughts came into my mind, what if this was not an accident? Some of this is rewritten and you can find it under Inside Their Minds 2, but that is not finished yet.