Phil was angry at everything. He was angry at the drunk diver who killed his mum, he was angry at his dad for moving Phil and his brother to Florida, he was angry at the brokenness of his family. After his mum had died, Phil had cut himself off from everyone, vowing that he would never fall in love to let anyone in again, for fear of being hurt. He had walls up that he would never let down. That is, until he met Dan. The boy that would break down every wall, the one that would show him that he could let people in. The one who showed Phil that love is worth the risk. ~The cover was made by the AMAZING @tissuesforissues ~ Mentions of suicide, car accidents, and alcohol

[COMPLETE] Dan sends anonymous texts to his bully, Phil. Bad decisions lead to unrefined, sloppy, disgusting love. warnings; -panic attacks -hurt/comfort -self harm -eating disorder

[COMPLETED] "phil, i have cancer"

"Mommy,what is gay? "It's when a man likes another man in the way mommies and daddies do.But it's a bad thing,it's a mental illness" And that was the moment when i realized i was mentally ill

[pastel dan/punk phil] dan howell; an internet sensation, blogger and self proclaimed 'pastel prince'. phil Lester; the mastermind behind the city, technical crime-lord and overall coffee indulger. their paths never were supposed to cross, but sometimes paths are never certain. pastel prince// pastel dan + punk phil//2016 [highest ranking: #20 in detective]

{ the sting of these cuts don't hurt as much as your words }

{ She may be the one for you, but your not the one for her}

Phil is an ordinary guy with an ordinary life. Nothing very special about him, he's just normal. But it all changes when, on the weirdest day of his life, he meets the very quiet and recluse, Dan Howell. He's different. Phil doesn't usually do different, but something about Dan makes him want to try it. But when he's pulled into a world he didn't even know existed, he doesn't know if his choice was such a smart one. Because, there's a reason Dan is different. And it might not be so good.

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