Jensen bristles visibly, straightening his back and squaring his shoulders. Looking so appalled that he maybe, possibly, almost kissed his best friend off set. "Fine," he says tersely. "You're right; this is...weird. I obviously need to get some sleep." The hope that bubbled up inside me congeals and sinks to a sour ache in the pit of my stomach. "Yeah, me too." I pinch the bridge of my nose, then force myself to flash him a toothy grin, cocky mask sliding expertly into place. "So thank goodness that didn't happen." "Right," he laughs breathlessly. "Would've been so weird." "Fucking messed up." "Yeah." I stare at my drink, twinkling amber and gold in the starlight as the non-too-subtle tension between us simmers and stews like a poisonous vapour spreading a miasma of stifled and humiliating desire. We lapse into crestfallen silence. What exactly did you think was going on here Misha? The voice in my head berates me derisively. It's called acting. Ever heard of people getting a little lost in role playing? That's all this is. #1 - cockles #1 - misha #1 - casdean #1 - destiel Sequel: That's When We Uncover {Cockles}

When Destiel becomes canon will Misha finally tell Jensen his feelings he's been hiding for months?.

"Damnit, Jensen, listen to yourself - follow your heart? What kind of fucking Disney movie do you think this is-" "That's your problem right there, Mish. You think only Disney characters deserve a happy ending. You're not fair to yourself 'cause you don't think that fairytale shit happens to real people in real life, but it can. We had that kind of thing, Mish, you and I. We had it, for a time-" "Just shut up," Misha hisses, almost pleadingly. "You don't know what you're talking about." Part of me is tempted to give in, to drop this touchy subject and just enjoy the rest of the walk. It would be easier. But I care too much about him to let it go, even if it costs me my peace for the evening. "I'm talking about how you need to start doing what's right for you for a change. You think plenty about your wife and your children and your parents and your fans, but when was the last time you considered what you needed? What about what you want, Mish? You've got everything else worked out, but who's gonna look out for that?" #1 - cockles #1 - misha #1 - casdean #14 - destiel Sequel to "Nobody Sees, Nobody Knows {Cockles}"