the title says it all

Phil gets bullied. Oneday, after his unusually rough beating, he meets Dan. They soon develop a friendship, stronger than anything, which soon turns to love. But when Phil is left to decide on who he truly loves, will he go with Dan, or someone from the past?

"The less you care, the happier you are." He turned to face me, his blue eyes dull with traces of betrayal. "No. The less you care, the lonelier you are." - In a world where people have the ability to flip an emotions switch, many people lack feelings and sympathy in general- including Dan Howell after a tragedy strikes and he can't take it. However, he meets Phil Lester, the outgoing flirt with too big of a heart to handle. The two become close, and Dan soon realizes that even with his switch off, he can't deny that Phil is slowly reaching to turn it back on, and Dan can't seem to push his hand away.

Phil doesn't talks. Well, not anymore. The last time he said something, was when he didn't hate himself. And that was a long time ago. But now, everything is different. He must struggle with depression, whilst new boy Dan Howell desperately attempts to win him over. [Warning: this could be triggering at some points]

just when the catipillar thought the world was over, it became a butterfly × sequel to 'transgender' {HIGHEST RANKING #3}

*'BEST PHANFICTION' WINNER (FANFICTION AWARDS 2018)* Daniel has anxiety and crumples paper to calm himself down. Phil has ADHD and diminishes hearts to bring himself up.

after dan howell is diagnosed with depression, his parents seek him help - but not in the way he may have expected. he's partnered up with phil lester online, someone who supposedly knows about mental health, with one instruction: text him. ❝ amazingphil : i just wanna be your friend danisnotonfire: how the hell is that going to help me? danisnotonfire: i'm depressed, not lonely amazingphil : just you wait, howell. ❞ minor swearing. lower caps intended.

Part 1 Phil is the new boy to school. Dan is the loner who doesn't talk. After his new friends, Chris and Pj, convince him to talk to him, Phil finds himself fascinated with him. As they grow closer he learns that the silent boy has a lot more to him. Part 2 After high school Dan and Phil moved in together, growing closer than before. As Phil finds out more and more about Dan's horrible past he finds himself feeling something more... Does Dan? What are they going to do though when Dan finally breaks? Can Phil fix him? And after 5 years of asking of Phil asking 'talk to me' will he? A/N Part 1 is mostly an in-depth backstory if you want to skip, although it might not make sense then. It also contains no actual 'Phan'. It will be entirely Phils POV for part 1 and mostly Phil for part 2. This book was inspired by 'Speak Up Already' by Geniusotaku. This is my first fan fiction so constructive criticism is appreciated. Credit to whoever made the cover, idk who it was I just found it. Completed! Contains: Phan (duh), KickTheStickz, Troyler, minor Zalfie. WARNING!!!! This book will probably be VERY triggering!! CONTAINS: attempted suicide, triggering thoughts, boyxboy, anorexia, depression, anxiety, selective muteness, abuse.

Dan is seen as a monster. He must hide away from society but is allowed out during Halloween. There he meets Phil but he must go back into hiding again once Halloween ends and he's determined to not let Phil know that the monster he sees isn't made up. Cover by: @VictoriaEUbanks

my name is dan, not danielle × somewhat based off of the short film boy (HIGHEST RANKING: #2 in fanfiction)